Enduring Love

Kucing oh kucing

2012-02-09T01:06:00.002+08:00

Pernah tak korang terfikir satu hari nanti korang akan berkahwin, pastu ada anak, pastu jaga anak sampai besar, sekolahkan diorang, bagi tuisyen, hantar mengaji, bagi hadiah bila dapat markah tinggi, bila jatuh dan luka korang akan bawa pergi klinik, demam sikit je korang bawa pergi jumpa doktor, bila dia nakal korang akan cubit atau tarik telinga atau rotan dia, pastu dia dah besar dan dah pandai jaga diri, dia akan berjauhan dengan korang, pergi sekolah asrama, seminggu sekali je balik, kadang-kadang sebulan sekali je baru balik, lepas tu hantar belajar keluar negeri sebab dia bijak pandai, mula-mula setiap 6 bulan sekali balik kampung, telefon rumah setiap hari ahad, lama-lama setahun sekali je boleh balik, telefon pun sebulan sekali, kabar berita tak sampai pun kat korang, lepas dah abis belajar dia dapat offer kerja dekat luar negara, korang bangga dapat anak macam dia, pastu dia balik satu hari bawa seorang teman, korang tau yang masa untuk dia berumahtangga dah tiba, korang pun siapkan belanja untuk kenduri kahwin nanti, selepas bertunang dia kerja luar negara, pastu bila tiba masa dia pun berkahwin, gembira dan sedih terlihat kat wajah korang bila akad nikah berlangsung, korang happy sebab dia dah jumpa teman hidup yang sesuai dengan dirinya, lepas kahwin dia pindah rumah dengan pasangan hidupnya, setiap bulan dia akan telefon dan tanya kabar, kemudian setiap nak balik kampung je baru dia telefon, bila dia dah dapat anak korang lah orang pertama yang dia bagitau, cucu pertama korang sangat comel, bila dah dapat anak ke-3, dia dah jarang telefon atau tanya kabar, hanya duit dalam bank yang bertambah sebab dia masukkan setiap bulan untuk korang, pastu korang yang akan telefon dia tanya kabar, tanya pasal keluarga, pasal kerja, pastu korang mula jatuh sakit, hari pertama korang sakit dia balik tengok, masuk hari ke-3 dia kena balik ke rumah dia untuk urus keluarga dan kerja, setiap malam dia telefon, dia akan suruh korang duduk hospital sebab takde orang nak jaga korang kat rumah, bila korang dah keluar hospital dia siapkan orang nak jaga korang, tapi tak tahan lama, pastu dia cadangkan korang duduk kat rumah orang-orang tua, dia pujuk korang sampai korang setuju, walaupun sedih korang tetap pergi sebab taknak susahkan dia, bila dah sampai waktu dipanggil Tuhan korang sebut nama dia, semoga dia ada disisi korang saat itu, tapi...

Its TL;DR (too long, didn't read). Yep, I just scrapped the first thing that came into my mind. No one knows what the future hold for us. Only pray and hope that everything will end well.

Nak cerita pasal anak kucing baru je sebenarnya. Tapi terlajak melayan perasaan jap. hehe

she's cute isn't she? :)

thats all..

Juara lagu

2012-01-29T23:04:00.001+08:00

Apa nak buat malam ni ek? Erm, main game pun okay jugak.
Eh, sape mesej ni? Oh, sara.
"Bai, malam ni ko tgk AJL x?"
rep:"Klu xde keje aku tgk la kot.xde sape pun kat umah aku tgk."
"Pick aku boleh?"
rep:"Ah maleesss. Datang r sndri. Blk aku hantar boleh la."
"haha.orait.aku takut balik sesorg."

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Sekarang tengah layan AJL. Lagu Faizal Tahir, Hafiz dgn Aizat memang de Best la. Lagu lain pun okay gak. Layan la semua. Sambil tengok AJL, sambil tu tukar-tukar tengok final Nadal lawan Djokovich. Lama betul diorang main. Sampai nak dekat 6 jam. Yang tengok pun penat apalagi yang main tu.Fuhh!

thats all..

Bosan lagi

2012-01-28T12:38:00.001+08:00

Sejak seminggu ni macam malas yang teramat pulak rasanya. Macam-macam kerja yang delay tapi takde satupun yang betul-betul finish on time. Mesti ada lambat sehari dua. Ohhh...kenapalah begini?

Nak kena tukar tiket balik Malaysia sebab jadual untuk department baru dah keluar. Bulan 5 nanti baru boleh balik, Isk, lama betul. Rindu betul nak jumpa parent. Malam ni nak call ibu ayah tanya kabar.

"Dalam hidup ini orang sering mengawini orang yang tidak dicintai dan mencintai orang yang tidak bisa dikawini." (S.Belen)

thats all..

Want some photo shooting

2012-01-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

Rasa macam dah lama tak bergambar sana sini. Rasa geram je tengok kamera tu. Bila la agaknya nak free nih? Cuti raya cina semalam duduk rumah je. Tak kemana pun. study sikit untuk kes nanti. Lepas tu belajar gitar gak. Ada yang menarik kat youtube yang buat rasa nak main gitar je sampai tengah malam. huhu

Semalam ada kat Discovery channel pasal human body dan martial arts. Bila tengok citer tu rasa semangat je nak belajar kungfu. Haisyh. Mesti best kalau boleh belajar sikit-sikit. Ada ke belajar kungfu online? Pernah tak ada orang terfikir nak buat camtu? Kan sekarang ni zaman global. Semua information ada kat hujung jari.

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Immigration, please!

2012-01-13T11:23:00.002+08:00

Hati dah ready nak balik Malaysia, tup tap tup tap, datang lagi masalah. Amboi..tak boleh tengok aku senang sikit. Kali ni sebab kertas SPP tak jumpa. Nak buat permit balik kena ada surat rektor which nak buat surat rektor tu kena lampirkan salinan SPP. Now, cari SPP tak jumpa pulak. Habis satu bilik aku cari..Mana la kau menyorok ni oh SPP??

Kalau tak jumpa jugak, maknanya kena tunggu bayar yuran nanti la baru boleh buat surat tu. Which mean jugak, yang aku takkan dapat balik Malaysia bulan ni. Hampeh. Takpe-takpe. Cari je dulu slow-slow. Mesti ada somewhere tu.

Pagi ni tak banyak kerja sangat. So, aku pun ambil la peluang ni nak susun budget bulanan sebab dah asyik overspent je setiap bulan. Nak kata biaya hidup kat sini murah, aku rasa sama je dengan Malaysia. Tapi kalau tambah dengan fitness nya barang memang banyak jugak la duit mengalir keluar. Makan kalau asyik bungkus kat kedai je memang berat sikit poket. Tapi kalau nak masak, malas la pulak. Hujung minggu ke, petang-petang ke, rajin la sikit aku nak masak. So memang kena berjimat bulan ni dan bulan depan. Balik Malaysia nanti makan la puas-puas. Lagi best.

thats all..

Both tyre

2012-01-12T11:05:00.000+08:00

Masa klinikal ni yang penting adalah semangat, ilmu pengetahuan dan duit. Tiga-tiga ni sangat la penting. Kalau takde salah satu macam tak leh jalan lah klinikal kat sini. Ibarat nya macam Semangat dan Duit adalah tayar basikal. Ilmu pengetahuan pulak kawal basikal tu sebagai handle basikal.

Mungkin kalau basikal ni adalah aku, maknanya sekarang tayar depan dengan tayar belakang aku tengah pancit. Nak kena isi angin balik dan kena buat dengan cepat. Tapi handle pun macam tak berapa nak betul sikit. Macam baru-baru belajar naik basikal juga la. Asal kan tak sesat sudah.

thats all..

My head gonna blow

2012-01-10T11:31:00.001+08:00

Malam tadi aku tidur dengan 1001 perkara bermain kat otak aku. Fikir pasal klinikal yang tak siap-siap, pasal yuran yang mahal nak kena bayar, pasal pasien yang tak nak datang walaupun dah cakap free of charge, pasal awek yang terlepas pergi, pasal solat jemaah yang dah lama tak join. Macam-macam. Sampai satu point yang aku rasa pening sangat sebab fikir benda-benda ni, aku rasa dunia ni berpusing, aku ingat ada gempa bumi, aku terus terjaga. Pandang kanan kiri. Tengok-tengok betul ke ada gempa.

Senyap.

Sunyi.

Tak ada apa-apa pun. Sah. Memang kepala aku yang tengah serabut gila ni.

Lepas tu aku sedar lagi sekali bila jam alarm aku berbunyi. Bangun, terus ambil wudu' dan sembahyang subuh. Habis sembahyang aku baring balik kat tilam, ready nak tidur. Tak lama lepas tu baru terdengar azan subuh. Shit. Aku sembahyang awal sangat tadi rupanya. Dah lama tak bangun subuh sampai tak tahu pukul berapa masuk waktu. Aku pun bangun dan sembahyang subuh sekali lagi.

Thats all..

I'm lost

2012-01-03T10:48:00.000+08:00

Setiap hari pergi kerja, tapi setiap hari takde hasil. Pergi Punch card pastu balik tido. Kalau tak tido pun, mesti lepak depan tv. Pasien tak cari lagi. Kasus entah ke mana, aku entah ke mana.

Damn!

thats all..

New Year New stuff

2012-01-02T10:44:00.001+08:00

New Year Eve's hari tu, kitorg buat BBQ kat rumah aku. So dari pagi lagi dah busy ke pasar beli ayam dan sayur. Dah siap peram ayam, kemas rumah pula. Dari dapur sampai ke laman rumah, semua aku kemas. Walaupun tak berapa nak teliti tapi sedap la mata memandang. Lepas tu ready pula coleslaw. Dah siap potong-potong semua, masukkan dalam fridge pastu tunggu sampai pukul 4 nanti baru stat masak.

Menu untuk malam tu tak banyak mana pun. Ayam bakar, kentang goreng, coleslaw, ubi rebus. Okay la untuk belanja sorang Rp15,000-. Siap ada lebih sikit ayam dengan ubi. Sambal pun dari tak berapa nak jadi, terus okay bila makan dengan coleslaw. Puas hati bila dapat buat aktiviti macam ni sekali sekala. Tapi sayang sebab tak ambil gambar. Just makan-makan camtu je.

Menu lunch dekat Warung Netral. Setiap hari makan Nasi Ayam Kentucky dan kuah kari. Terbaik!

thats all..

What do you think

2011-12-23T06:11:00.002+08:00

Semalam keluar makan dengan gadis local. Pergi makan dim sum. Kenyang sangat. Masa makan tu, ada Mama hot duduk sebelah meja kitorang. Memang cun la wa cakap sama lu. Ada anak kecik 2 orang dalam umur 2 - 3 tahun. Pastu sebelah dia ada lagi 3 orang anak jantan, maybe adik die kot, sbb mcm dah besar dah umur-umur 17-18 tahun kot. Dalam hati aku dok pikir, apa la yang diorang rasa bila Mama diorg HOT sangat? Mesti tension sebab orang lain asyik usha mak dia je. LOL

Malam ni lak nak pergi tengok citer Mission impossible Ghost Protocol. Disebabkan sekarang ada sale kat Sun, ramai sangat yang shopping. Sampai pukul 9 lebih pun macam tak berkurang orang. Dah la jammed gile kat situ. Ade setengah jam kot stuck kat jalan je semalam. So malam ni kena gerak awal kalau nak tengok muvi.

Hari ni besday Yumira. Last year aku pergi meredah panas terik matahari sebab nak cari kan kek paling best untuk besday dia. Best je rasa kacau dia. Walaupun tau dia tak layan, tapi bila kena kacau nanti dia malu-malu pastu blushing sampai muka merah padam. So cute la this girl. Not really my type, but considerable just to kill some times.

thats all..

Experienced worker

2011-12-20T15:20:00.001+08:00

Dah masuk department perio kali kedua ni, rasa macam senang gila scaling gigi orang. Kejap je dah siap. Dulu bukan main lama lagi nak siapkan satu rahang. Kali ni setengah jam pun tak sampai buat satu mulut. Mantap jugak la. LOL.

Teringin nak makan Dim sum..

..dan teringin jugak nak makan tom yam..huhu..terliur...*drool*

Ingat nak masak je, tapi macam malas nak pergi beli barang-barang dia. Rumah pun tak terkemas lagi. Dah sebulan lebih tak sapu rumah. Hadoi~

thats all..

A little sick for now

2011-12-14T21:52:00.001+08:00

Penat. Tapi belum start kerja lagi. Badan rasa lemah je. Asal bangun tidur, mesti sakit kepala berdenyut-denyut. Kepala rasa bengang je. Makan panadol sebiji kemudian tidur balik.

Esok start kerja scaling gigi. Apa pun tak siap lagi. List yang hari tu buat tak habis lagi tick. Nak kena tambah baru.

List:
1) Hantar kawat ke rumah pasien.
2) Trimming model orto
3) Tunjuk kat doktor pembimbing titik sefalo
4) Beli jam baru
5) Start pergi gym balik
6) Hitung-hitung kat BM.
7) Cari pasien p'tis dgn pelmel.
8) Jogging pagi-pagi
9) Basuh beg
10) Belajar lagu baru.
11) Bagi surat JPA ke Mimi n Naim
12) Kemas nota dan past year question.
13) Start menabung.

Kalau setakat tulis je memang kerja tak jalan. So lepas tidur nanti nak terus buat mana yang boleh.

thats all..

Nowhere to go

2011-12-11T05:52:00.001+08:00

Talking about future. I wished to talked about it. I never had a chance until now. Since I met her. I can say what a guy my age should say.

Accept it. But not in love.

I got some time to shoot some photos with her. It was fun. The least to say. I'm enjoying every moment I have someone by my side.

Till when??

thats all..

When I hurt her

2011-12-04T02:44:00.001+08:00

*Paradise by Coldplay in background.*

I have a problem with girls since I was a kid. Pretty girls. I notice it when I kept looking at the girl. I even go miles to get her attention. Buying her things, gift, trying so hard to be in the spotlight. Sometimes I put on higher voice and laugh out loud hoping that she will notice me. My child memories with girls were not that great.

*Selimut hati by Dewa 19 in background*

Malam ni main futsal tak berapa nak jadi. Lepas tu takde yang nak jadi keeper. Semua nak main sepak-sepak. Bola pun berat semacam je. Sejak bola yang best tu hanyut dibawa arus parit, abang jaga court tu tak nak dah ganti bola baru walaupun kitorang dah bayar ganti rugi. Hampeh.

*Some one like you by Adele in background*

Agak-agak nya kalau aku balik Malaysia, nanti gadis tu patah hati tak?

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The little thing I missed

2011-12-02T01:20:00.001+08:00

A wonderful quotes from my friend

thats all..

Smooth DECEMBER

2011-12-01T19:58:00.001+08:00

Its the will to go forward that drives me till this stage of life.

Its the patient and faith that leads me till where I am right now.

Its all the companion I have that I manage to stay happy.

thats all...

Don't dissapoint me

2011-11-28T00:44:00.001+08:00

If you feel down, when people around you say you can't, when they hate you for what you were...

thats all..

We move on

2011-11-24T14:25:00.001+08:00

Pagi ni lamabat pergi klinik sebab edit-edit gambar wisuda semalam. Then kemas bagasi yang besar yang dah berhabuk tu. Bawa keluar semua baju yang tak pakai dalam tu dan sort out. Ada yang masih bagus ingat nak bagi ke anak yatim. Yang teruk sangat buat kain buruk je la. Ade skit yang nak kena buang jugak.
Dah tiba masa untuk buang barang-barang yang dah simpan berabad lamanya ni. Benda yang tak pakai tapi sayang nak buang sebab ada emotional value. Sekarang dah lepas semua. Biarlah yang baru je yang ada dalam hidup ni. Baju yang lama tu buang je la. Kertas-kertas yang dah simpan bertahun-tahun tak tahu nanti pakai lagi ke tak pun akan dibuang lepas ni.

Another thing about moving on is it is easier if you have someone you can share with is around you.

thats all..

Long since I had it..

2011-11-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

Every morning I wake up not knowing what I should do to brighten my day..I had a same routine everyday. Wake up, take a bath, eat breakfast, goes to work, get home, eat again, sleep. Then I realize I had to have girl aside from my wonderful friends to hang out with. My journey begins and some girls appeared and gone from my life right then. Until recently, I had been with a few kind of girl. Each everyone of them different in every way. I learn to know girl.

"Ada girl masak kan makan malam tadi. Walaupun nasi lembik tapi kenyang la jugak. LOL"

thats all..

Nightmare

2011-11-18T09:00:00.001+08:00

Malam semalam ada rasa macam tak best. Badan rasa penat sangat. So sebelum tidur, mandi dulu skit walaupun sebenarnya tak bagus mandi malam-malam, nanti boleh kena paru-paru berair. Then aku terus tidur. Masa tengah tidur, aku dikejutkan oleh bunyi kucing nak masuk ikut tingkap. Memang biasa macam tu, kucing ni tak makan saman sikit. Asal terbukak sikit tingkap tu mula la dia panjat masuk. Disebabkan aku tidur tepi tingkap, maka aku dijadikan tempat landing masa kucing tu turun dari tingkap.
Tapi pelik sikit malam ni. Aku tak dengar lansung bunyi meng-iau. So aku angkat sikit kepala nak tengok betul ke kucing tu ke benda apa. Kosong. Tak nampak apa-apa pun kelibat kucing. Pintu bilik ada sikit terbukak. Hurm..Maybe kucing tu terus keluar dari bilik kot, aku fikir. Tapi dalam kepala dah terbayang yang bukan-bukan. Malas nak fikir, aku sambung tidur balik.

Dalam tidur, aku mimpi yang bukan-bukan. Aku tak ingat separuh mimpi aku pasal apa, tapi kat hujung mimpi aku dikejutkan oleh bayang-bayang 'ghost'. Ada pocong dalam mimpi aku. Dalam mimpi tu auk tengah mandi, tiba-tiba ghost tu muncul kat tepi tingkap bilik air.
"Babi la~!" tu je yang keluar dari mulut aku masa aku curse ghost tu sebab kacau aku mandi. Aku cepat-cepat keluar bilik air. Then aku ternampak abang aku. Aku nak cakap something tapi tiba-tiba muka dia terkejut macam nampak ada ghost kat belakang aku. Aku dapat rasa mesti ada ghost gak. So aku pusing belakang dan memang betul-betul tepi muka aku. Dan sekali lagi aku curse ghost tu, "babi la, babi~!!"
Then aku terjaga dari tidur.

Jam menunjukkan pukul 4.58 am. Hurm..dah masuk subuh dah rupanya.

thats all..

Playboy

2011-11-15T01:17:00.001+08:00

One of my friend called me Playboy just because I was good to every pretty girl met. Actually, I was good to everyone. She knew I was into this girl but I kept on hitting other girls. It what makes me U B A I. Undeniably Bad Ass Inside. LOL

This girl made a request for me to sing her Bruno Mars song. So I made a video and I put in it every picture of heart I had in my laptop. When I called her later, she asked me, If I meant all the picture in it for her. I don't have the right answer. I laughed it out and try to change subject. She kept asking me again and again. At last, I said, those are the pictures I had in my laptop and I put it in the video to match the song. A love song should filled with hearts. I know its not what she wanted to hear. But I just can't say it just yet. It will be so much to lose If I said it just then.

I slept less and less everyday but none of it because of my work. And I think my eyes will get ruined soon if I'm not sleep well and work in brighter condition.

thats all..

What happened?

2011-11-13T17:19:00.001+08:00

Tengok game Malaysia lawan Cambodia. Bila dah dapat 1-0 mula la main possession. Ada kadang-kadang tu tahan bola pun tak bagus. Asyik lepas je. Rembat entah ke mana. Tapi tu performance sekarang. Tahap dia memang tak seberapa. Harap-harap lepas ni pasukan U23 Malaysia berkembang lagi.

Cakap pasal bola, semalam baru je main futsal piala konjen. Tapi tak lepas grup stage pun. Takde rezeki. Tapi okay la kot sebab dapat jaring 4 gol untuk team. Mamut pun dapat satu gol je. Lepas ni dah takde tornemen dah nak join. Tu la last untuk kat Medan ni. Lepas ni main kat titi bobrok je la malam minggu.

thats all..

my birthday yesterday

2011-11-11T03:23:00.001+08:00

I had a wonderful evening with the girl. We went out to eat, lepak-ing some more, then we headed to her house. I remembered it was 8.30 pm when I arrive at her house. I went back home at 1 o'clock in the morning~! WTF?! Man, that was crazy. We only watch movie, listen to some music and playing guitar.
Now she really into me. I can't back off right now just yet. hurm..

I brought this on me, I have to deal with it myself.

thats all..

Last night

2011-11-04T11:43:00.000+08:00

"Yesterday I went out with her to celebrate her birthday. We eat, watch movie and hanging out at her house. Its raining night but I insisted to go on with our plan. Its was wonderful.
Until late hour, some one from my past appeared. Farhana. With her friend. I didn't notice her at first, but the way she walked quickly past me caught my attention. I stuttered for a second. Calm down. I said to myself."

I made a birthday card for her.

The doll is cute and the card I made is beautiful. I'm impressed with myself. LOL

thats all..

Bold. Very bold

2011-11-01T02:27:00.002+08:00

I didn't realize it but I'm beginning to show more of my heart to this girl. I don't want to admit it but everything I did, shows how I like being around her. I think I might even moves a mountain for her.
Her birthday is just three days away. What should I get her? A teddy? Flower? Wishing card? Watch? Cloth? Shoes?

"Alangkah indah saat itu. Saat bila engkau masih dalam pelukanku. Namun ku harus relakanmu. Kerana tangannya sudah ku genggam erat. Tidak mungkin ku lepas."

thats all..

Hanging out, hanging on

2011-10-31T01:31:00.000+08:00

"Pergi carrefour dengan gadis local. Makan dekat fountain. I tergelak sendiri sebab diorg pilih nak makan nasi dengan martabak kat situ. Baik makan kat kedai lain yang memang spesialis nasi goreng. Kat fountain tu kan spesialis aiskrim, so better la pilih yang ada kaitan dengan aiskrim. Bukan nak kata aku ni pandai, but pilih lah makan ikut kesesuaian. Kalau makan kat Pizza Hut kan kena pilih pizza. Makan KFC, pilih ayam goreng. Konsep dia memang macam tu. Itu dipanggil food planning. I belajar pun masa kat matrix sebab ada dinner.
Masa form 5, kalau pergi makan yang ada buffet, mesti jadi rambang mata tak tahu nak ambil mana dulu. Pengalaman mengajar. Sekarang ni kalau ada dinner, I akan cari apa yang spesial kat situ. then cari yang lain dari biasa. Kalau nak makan nasi ke mee ke baik tak payah makan situ. Kat kedai mamak pun boleh. Bayar dah cukup mahal dah tu."

I'm not doing any planning and now I'm in dilemma. I have to stop delaying works. Focus on one thing makes me missed the other. I hate it when I didn't manage myself carefully. Even when I tried my best, inside I'm still a mess.

thats all..

I am legend

2011-10-30T12:34:00.004+08:00

"Hari ahad pertama sebagai non-lab..setelah tamat setahun sebagai koas..banyak lagi kasus yang tak setel lagi..ada 4 department yang kena repeat.. Ya Allah, Mudahkanlah segala urusanku.."

Last week sebelum keluar, Aizat menikah dengan orang Indo. Isteri dia ustazah pesantren. Alhamdulillah, acara berjalan dengan lancar. Mahar yang diminta pengantin perempuan sangat best. Hafalan surah Ar-Rahman. Wow. Jarang ada zaman sekarang mahar macam tu. Semoga menjadi keluarga yang diberkahi Allah, mawaddah wa rahmah.

Girl? Its girls.
I know this is wrong. Playing one girl which I don't have any feeling just to kill times, but chasing another I wish to spend the rest of my life with. I'm sorry.

thats all..

multitasking

2011-10-23T02:31:00.000+08:00

"98% of average human cannot multitasking."

I am in that percentage. When I swim, I cannot drink. When I sneeze, I cannot talk.
But right now, I'm practically going out with a girl and holding on to another one. Not to mention I'm still working in clinic and have a test coming. Soon, I'm gonna crash. Because I'm not capable of multitasking. I know what I am inside that's why I'm gonna back off from one thing.

Aizat baru kawin semalam. I jadi fotografer dia. Alhamdulillah, sorang kawan I dah selamat kawin. Semoga bahagia ke anak cucu..

thats all..

Got sick again

2011-10-17T23:16:00.001+08:00

"Makan ubat seminggu yang lepas. Minggu ni makan lagi. Batuk kali ni tak teruk macam minggu lepas tapi sekali dengan demam pulak. Serius gila tak larat. Macam lalok je setiap hari. Dah la kena kerja sampai petang. Pukul 4 pukul 5 baru balik rumah. Malam sambung lagi kerja kat rumah. Kalau ada on call memang pengsan dibuatnya."

My dad teach me a lot. He teach me to be a man. A gentleman. But sometimes a lose my cool and begin ignoring all around me. Especially when I got sick. I can't think straight and I regret it happened. I need to set my mind straight.

thats all..

Composing lagu

2011-10-11T02:35:00.002+08:00

"Arrangement dia dah ok dah ni. Tinggal nanti kau kena sama kan tempo dia."
"Tempo? Camne nak bagi sama?"
"Pakai fruty loop pun boleh. Cuba kau bukak jap"
"Ni haa. Kat mana?"
"Tu. Meh sini aku buatkan."
"....."
"Dah. Sekarang rekod la balik lagu tadi."

..............................................................................

A very talented musician stop by to guide us in composing this song. He said our arrangement is okay but need to sync the tempo. There is still one piece missing. The solo part. I beg him to arrange that part for us. He said okay and gonna look into it. What a relief. Now I can focus on the melody. The one who will sing this song is not me. Definitely not me. I think my friend, Qurot, gonna match the song just nice.

thats all..

26 jam sehari

2011-10-09T02:38:00.001+08:00

"Busy sangat 3 hari ni. Banyak nak kena taip. Assignment dah bertumpuk, kerja lab pun asyik delay je. Macam tak cukup sehari nak kerja. Kalau lah tak payah tidur kan bagus. Komfem siap semua kerja.
Ada side project lagi kali ni. Ada competition lagu untuk Bandung Games. So far yang nampak ada hasil cuma wakil dari Jakarta. Wakil yang lain hantar video yang tak berapa nak best. So, I dan kawan-kawan tengah perah otak mencipta lagu baru. hihi..Last night dah siapkan music sikit, cuma tinggal nak tambah bass, then melodi nyanyian dia. Lepas tu nak kena buat video clip pulak. Huhu..tak sabar nak tengok hasil akhir dia."

About girl? I wanna be just friend for now. I have a second thought of it when I put myself in someone else shoes. How would you like some one coming to you and say, hey, is that your girlfriend? Isn't she had some mental problem or something? Hufff. That would be weird. A risk of being with her is either as her cure or as her poison. I don't want to be either. Poison might killed you and if healed, you wouldn't want to take medicine anymore. Who would? Yup, I might sound like I don't want her but seriously I need more time.

thats all..

I want it so bad, it hurts

2011-10-04T01:14:00.001+08:00

"Baru tadi I try call this girl lagi skali. Because sampai sekarang I tak tau apa jadi kat dia. Semua terputus macam tu je. Yang I tahu, member dia cakap yang dia dah balik dengan ex dia.
Truuut..trutt Truut..trutt.. *click* Hello.."
...............................................
I had a long talk with her. I really want to know what really happened from her own lips. I asked her what bother her last week. She paused for a second and sigh. I know this gonna be long conversation.
...............................................
"Rupanya dia bukan balik ke ex dia. Instead, dia tengah lari dari ex dia. Dia dengan ex dia dah putus sebab ex dia ada girl lain yang 'perlu' dari dia. Past mistakes. Selalu je kesilapan silam yang mengganggu present. And now, dia dah tak ada apa-apa dengan ex dia. Tapi dia tak berapa nak kuat. Sebab sampai sekarang ex dia asyik contact dia walaupun dah kena marah dengan kawan-kawan dia. Last semester, this girl terpaksa ambil prescription untuk ubat penenang gara-gara tekanan perasaan yang terlalu berat.
Last week, ex dia cakap nak datang jumpa dia kat sini. Dia marah. Dan setiap kali tu juga dia akan stress berat. This girl dah hampir gila nak lari dari ex dia. Dari SPM dapat 11A, matrix kat PASUM, then ambil MEDIC, I terasa sangat impress dengan dia. Tapi semester lepas dia drop dengan teruk. She starts skipped class. Berkurung dalam bilik. Once a while je keluar. Nasib baik ada kawan-kawan yang support dia."
................................................
She said she desperately needs a turnover. She tried so many thing to change back to who she was. I said, you have to stop first what ever depressed you. If he contact you made you swallow a pill, then he is definitely the first thing to stop. Cut everything that related to him. Then will you find a new beginning. (Though I secretly want to be that new beginning).

I hate to say this, but men really are selfish. I am too. I know because I act like a jerk when I didn't even know the truth yet.

thats all...

So sick

2011-10-04T00:42:00.001+08:00

*cough**cough*
"Sakit tekak dan batuk *cough* rasa macam nak tercabut anak tekak. *cough* Inilah akibat selalu keluar malam-malam. Angin malam bukannya bagus untuk badan. *cough**cough* Oh, kenapalah lepas satu, satu datang ujian. Bertahan lah Ubai~!"

Aside from that, Dental Faculty USU has been given an honour to host "Bulan Kesehatan Gigi Nasional" for 3 days. Starting today, and what a crowd it is. I don't have enough hand to manage all patients. It really is hectic day. Really tiring but the experience I gain worth everything.

thats all..

Its jamming time

2011-10-02T10:21:00.002+08:00

"Rasa macam nak jamming lagi je minggu ni. Ada banyak masa lapang actually. Sekarang ni nak fikir lagu apa nak main. Setiap kali jamming asyik main lagu sama je. Kalau tak cinta gila, perfect situation, mesti disampingmu. Nak jugak main lagu genre lain. Haih. Cepat search lagu best2.."

thats all..

Back to zero

2011-10-01T00:43:00.001+08:00

"Kawan dia bagitau yang dia dah baik balik dengan ex dia."

Wow. And just like that, I stop chasing it. Damn you cupid. Why do you have to make another hole in my heart. Oh, well. I guess I have to keep learning about relation. So much I'm lacking inside. What should I do then till another girl appear in my life?

thats all..

Its gonna be a very long chase

2011-09-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

"awak dah tengok citer Xmen first class?"
"blom..nape?"
"haa..saya kat Sun ni..nak tak tengok malam ni?"
"eh..takpe la awak..takpe. Lagi pun esok saya ada tutor.."
"oo..ok..saya ingat nk ajak awak keluar sebab awak asyik berkurung je dalam bilik hari ni.."
"ala...takpe.,takpe.."
"haha..masuk ni dah lima kali awak cakap takpe.."
"ye ke..hihi..takpe. saya okay je.."
"kalau esok cmne?"
"esok saya tak boleh la awak..saya nak pergi rumah kawan saya.."
"ooooooo......hurm....klau esok nye lak..hehe..takde lah...nanti awak cakap takpe je nanti..haha."
"ermm...sorry...awak marah saya ke?"
"eh, taklah..takpe pon..saya ingat awak tak berapa nak okay je sehari dua nih..tu yang nak ajak awak keluar skit.."
"hurm..ada la skit tak okay..tapi dah okay dah sekarang.."
"saya nak sangat jumpa awak"
"ermm..susah la awak..cmne ek nak cakap.."
"kenapa?."
"hurm..awak kenal *tuutt* kn? Ala, budak *tuutt* gak..erm..org panggil dia *tuutt*.."
"haa..ingat-ingat.." (tak berapa nak fun bila dia mention nama laki lain)
"Semalam la..dia kontek saya..macam mane nak cakap ek..hurm.."
"So?"
"dia kan.....98&()*&"
"haa? xdengar.."
"erm..takper lah.."
"err..takpelah..awak takyah citer pon..sorry, saya macam push awak lak.."
"hurmm..."
"its okay. saya faham..awak tak payah citer lagi.."
"hurm..apa yang awak faham?.."
"erm..let just stay with saya faham je, ok? eh saya ada beli tokiyaki utk awak ni..awak nak tak?"
"eh takpela..awak makan la..awak kan nk jadi gemuk..hihi."
"bukan gemuk la..nak jadi tough.."

..............................................................................

And like that, again, she resent me. I kinda got her story patched. In short, her ex called her a night before and she had a confusing feeling as she recall her times with him. She skipped classes today and stayed home the whole day. I called her just to check up on her. She kept telling me she's okay though. And that boy she mention, is one of my friend from my old school. Damn, I hate it when the past kept messing up the present.

I guess its gonna be awhile before she gets in the mood again. *huff*

thats all..

My paper heart

2011-09-29T15:03:00.000+08:00

"Apa yang boleh kita buat nak pujuk girl yg tengah sedih pasal kisah lama dia? Dia tau yg dia dah tak bersama dengan ex dia dan dia nk let go tapi macam susah. How? Boleh ke nak paksa dia keluar? Dari biar dia terperap dalam bilik layan feeling tertonggeng-tonggeng..Or patut ke pergi je rumah dia bila-bila masa pastu kidnap dia pergi makan, sembang-sembang ke?
Last time aku salah ayat masa pujuk girl. Langsung dia tak nak jumpa dah lepas tu. So kali ni tak nak salah cakap lagi. :("

Last thing I remember was holding her hand while we watched "Earth stood still". But our loves never did. I can never reach her game level. Its what I learn about life.

thats all..

Persuade (teach me how..)

2011-09-28T08:17:00.000+08:00

"..saya nak kenal awak lebih dalam lagi.."
"..klau macam tu, awak kena tau yang saya TAK NAK rapat dengan laki2!"
"...okay..itu permulaan yang baik. Saya tau apa yang awak TAK NAK sekarang..tapi kenapa dengan laki2?"
"Entah! saya malas nak fikir. Sakit hati je."
"..jadi awak TAK NAK rapat dengan laki2 sebab awak takut awak akan sakit lagi.."
"Ye la! lelaki semua sama je..huh!"
"Okay..saya dah tau apa yang awak TAK NAK..awak nak tau tak apa yang saya tak nak pulak? Saya TAK NAK tengok awak bersedih dan saya TAK NAK tengok awak kecewa lagi..sebab itu saya NAK jadi pengubat hati awak..saya NAK jadi penyeri hidup awak.."
"......"
"Awak boleh bagitau saya apa yang awak NAK bila awak mau..saya akan tunggu awak.."

.....................................................................................................................................

I'm not a sweet talker. And I'm not good at putting words together. I can't tell you what you want to hear. But I promise you I will always be there when you need me..

thats all..

Pesan ibu

2011-09-28T05:45:00.001+08:00

"Belajar sungguh-sungguh. Jangan tinggal solat. Jangan lupa doa." Pesan ibu yang pasti terucap setiap kali telefon. Anak yang jauh diperantauanlah yang paling dia risaukan. Dah 5 tahun duduk jauh dengan parent. Balik kampung bila ada cuti panjang dan masa cuti raya je . Boleh kiralah berapa kali je balik Malaysia. Habis je study, ingat nak duduk dengan ibu sebulan dua dulu sebelum start kerja. Dah kerja nanti tak tau lagi kena posting mana. Kalau jauh ke Sabah Sarawak kan lagi susah nak balik. Entah bila lagi nak berbakti pada parent.

And of course I want them to be there to see me success, to see me happy, getting married to a wonderful girl, having kids, buying a new car, moving to a new house. I want to make them proud for having me, for raising me, for teaching me about life. I know its not money that matters to them because they already have it more than enough to raise us 10 siblings. Knowing that we grow up well and happy already put a smile on their face. Oh, I miss them so much.(T-T)

thats all..

Internet is so fun

2011-09-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

Perut meragam gila malam ni. Nak tidur pun tak selesa. Pusing sana pusing sini. Tekan tekan sikit perut dengan harapan sakit boleh hilang. Tapi tak pun. Alahai, apa kes? Salah makan ke tadi? Maybe masuk angin sebab dinner lambat sangat kot tadi. Duduk jap menghadap laptop sambil layan feeling (dan perut yg sakit). Baca pasal bola, pasal F1. Then jumpa benda ni..sweet~

In real life, an old couple’s love is the closest thing you can compare to the ”happily ever after” you’ve been dreaming of since you were a kid. It’s amazing that once in a while, you get to witness a kind of love that have stood the test of time. And you could only wish, that someday, you too, would be just like them. Old, still in love & happy. I hope I could have that with my someone. :)

thats all..

What is defining?

2011-09-26T00:40:00.002+08:00

Malam terlalu singkat bila lena yang mengiringi terbit fajar. Apatah lagi bila tiada mimpi yang bertandang. Mungkin lelah, penat terlalu memaksa tidur sehingga tidak terasa nikmatnya lelap. Tapi masih lagi tertanya-tanya, entah bilakah nikmat tidur itu terasa? Sebelum tidurkah? Semasa tidurkah?atau setelah tidurkah?

Stupid conversations make sense when you are talking to some one special.

Find a love as great as this. :3

thats all..

Apa aku buat lepas main futsal?

2011-09-25T02:53:00.000+08:00

Baru balik dari main futsal. Duduk depan kipas pakai towel je sebab nyamuk banyak dan nk bagi peluh kering cepat. Tepuk sana tepuk sini halau nyamuk. Cek status orang kat facebook. Tengok ada tak gadis-gadis comel yang online. Si dia pun xde. da tido kot. Perut masih kenyang makan kat rumah Peik Chin tadi. No pork okay. Tengok tepi kipas ada gitar. Rase macam nak melalak tapi dah malam. Ada aku kesah? Amik je gitar terus strumming satu lagu. Somewhere only we know by Keane.

"I walk across an empty land, I knew the pathway like the back of my hand,
I felt the earth beneath my feet, sat by the river and it make me complete.
Oh simple thing where have you gone, I'm getting old and I need some one to rely on,
So tell me when you're gonna let me in, I'm getting tired and I need some where to begin"

Nyanyi sampai penat. Tepuk sana tepuk sini lagi halau nyamuk. Nampak bilik air kosong. Nak mandilah. Keluar pergi dapur jap minum air.

thats all..

Anual event

2011-09-24T16:30:00.001+08:00

For each year, I usually goes head over heels for a girl. One girl for each year. This year is the same. BUT the difference is that I felt for her after Eid. Back then, It was Fasting month, when cupid throw an arrow to me. Its a different situation and I just have work hard like before to maintain the spark that lit.

It is a wonderful feeling I have right now. But losing it will destroy part of my heart more. Thats why I'll keep on chasing until there is no space to run anymore.

thats all..

First meeting

2011-09-22T21:51:00.001+08:00

"Terus hilang confident bila jumpa dia. Kenapa la dia ni lawa sangat. Macam tak layak sangat aku dengan dia. OMG~! Kenapa la aku leh terfikir nak kat dia? Lawa sangat kot dia ni. Macam Beauty and the beast. Ohh tidak..dia terlalu sempurna untuk aku. Damn~!"

As I am right now, I guess I won't go after her anymore.

thats all..

A birthday gift

2011-09-22T04:02:00.000+08:00

"What's important to you, may not be important to anyone else. If you want something done, do it yourself."

When I decided to give her a birthday present, I want it to be cool but not too strong. Shows that I care but not too pushy. So I decided to made her a card. I put a little effort so she will know that I do want her and a hand made card is a simple gift to start with.

Gonna give her later..I'm hoping to meet her today! :)

thats all..

untie-ing the bind

2011-09-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna be your corner stone, where you sees me as mark to take a turn but never stop. I had all inside me wanting to be with you but that just left me another miles away from you. If you ask me, the answer will always be yes. Because you made my life different every time I'm with you..

"saat aku mulai berhenti berharap, kau hadir..."

thats all..

I have a crush

2011-09-20T02:18:00.001+08:00

Weet weet~
Right now I'm officially seeing this girl. My junior in high school. Though I still haven't met her eyes to eyes, it feels like we have known each other so much. We only chat online and on the phone. It has been a week and everything going well. I haven't decide my heart yet but this time I'm gonna go with the flow.

A few things about her I like to share...

She is a genius girl with tremendous result in every exam. She got 11 A's in SPM, above 3 CGPA in PASUM and got an offer to do Medical in Jordan which she turned down. 7th from eight sibling and live in Klang. She's not a fan of green color but she loves nature. Cat is her favorite pet. She sleeps late every night but get up early. She cooks atleast a meal a day. She has a tiny voice that song a beautiful melody to my ears. She's not a type that goes out with any boys because she comes from a religious background. What she had in mind, she do it with all effort. She is one heck of a girl.

thats all..

project runaway

2011-09-15T15:01:00.001+08:00

I got in mind a little surprise for upcoming birthday. Because I'm capable of editing video, singing, acting and arts, I got an idea how to make a wonderful birthday present.

It consist of me singing, then a little hand made card, a few lines of poem, and video of me. :)

Now, where to start??

thats all..

Hati bunga

2011-09-12T23:41:00.001+08:00

Kemana kau selama ini.
Bidadari yang ku cari.
Mengapa baru sekarang kita dipertemukan.

thats all..

Life comes and go

2011-09-12T01:43:00.001+08:00

This morning we all had witnessed the farewell bid Hitam away. A moment of regret and sad filled our time. Hitam passed away in horrific fall from highest stair in the house. I put a video and pictures together as a memoir as a remembrance of our time well spent.

Afternoon came and we went to a wedding. A ceremony that marks a start of the new beginning. Its served with delicious foods and beverages. Everyone smiles and capturing every moment of happiness in their eyes. Dr Putri, Congratulation on the new bond and family members. I wish you the best in life and happily ever after.

thats all..

I didn't know at all

2011-09-07T00:44:00.003+08:00

Of all the thing that I held onto, I never realize a simple thing like "hello" could turn everything around. I was on the verge of falling and there she stands looking invitingly with a hope that I'd take a leap to her. I did.

#dearYOU I love it how I can be having the worst day then you make it better by just saying "Hello" #DamnItsTrue

thats all..

Raya 2011

2011-09-06T01:48:00.002+08:00

What is raya without family?

Got so many food to eat.

Visiting relatives all around.

Driving around.

I <3 My family

thats all..

Whooppss!

2011-08-29T12:26:00.000+08:00

My dad offer me gadget, a Samsung Galaxy 2. Its beautiful.

Then, ..

errr..gtg..

thats all.

A day of not very good

2011-08-24T03:11:00.000+08:00

I had a tough day today. Starting with rain since last night till dawn and I stuck with Maggi for sahur. Then, I was late for clinic. My patient came by though I've already remind her not to come. Had a discussion with lecturer which end up she mad at me. After that we failed at taking dental impression several times and had to continue the next day. Wasted money on materials just to fail it again and again. Planning on shopping in the evening but end up sleeping till Iftar. Can't sleep afterward.

"Waktu kecik-kecik dulu ayah selalu cerita-cerita sebalum aku tidur. Kadang-kadang cerita yang dia sendiri reka tapi ada moral dia. Cerita Mat kambing, Mat lembu, macam-macam Mat lagi lah. Tapi masa kecik-kecik memang seronok dengar cerita-cerita macam tu. So, layan je apa cerita pun. Habis dengar cerita, ayah suruh baca doa tidur pastu tidur.

Dua hari lepas harijadi ayah aku. Aku tak sempat call nak wish. Tapi lagi sedih bila aku tak mesej pun. So, sebagai ganti dia aku dah belikan necktie untuk hadiah harijadi dia. Tak tau nak bagi hadiah apa dah. Sebat je mana yang nampak."

thats all..

Souvenir for home

2011-08-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

Dah balik raya ni ingat nak la beli sikit hadiah untuk adik2..fikr nye fikir, last2 decide nak belikan jam untuk adik2..jam pajus je..nak beli yang mahal2 tak mampu lak..pastu utk adik pompuan belikan gelang.
Untuk ayah, memula nak belikan wallet..round punye round, rasenye macam necktie lagi ok kot. Then ade lak offer buy 2 free 1.. hehe..sebat lah ape lagi..

Tie for dad, big bro and for me..

Bracelets for my two lil sisters..

And watches for my lil brothers..

Thanks tu sarah sbb ikut skali belikn all these stuffs..then ade lagi nak beli utk ibu dgn nenek..I had telekung and tudung acheh in mind..Tomorrow I'll start looking..

Can't wait to be home.. n_n

thats all..

I Miss You So Much!!

2011-08-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

...................

Yeah...thats right.

I Miss You..

....................

thats all..

When it is fasting month..

2011-08-20T09:34:00.000+08:00

*While listening to The Script - For The First Time*

"20 Ramadan dah sekarang tapi terawih tetap bocor2..Kadang2 buat 20, kadang2 buat 8 je..ade hari tu sebab makan luar ramai2, balik dah penat dan kenyang, terus tak terawih. Ustaz cakap kalau habis Ramadan tapi tak mendapat keampunan maka termasuklah kedalam orang yang celaka. Syaitan kena ikat pun still takleh nak buat amal.

Kahwin? Ada la orang tanya satu hari tu. "Abang umur berapa?" Aku jawab la 24 tahun. "Ooo..saya 21 thn tapi saya dah kahwin dah." Takpe. Memang ramai kahwin awal. Tapi ramai juga yang kahwin lambat. Aku? Aku lemah sikit dengan pompuan. Sbb tu aku suh mak aku carik kan je sorang utk aku."

Its been five years I studied here. Each Fasting month I'd fall for some one and after Eid, everything just gone. I wonder..

thats all..

Hardworking is it?

2011-07-15T17:49:00.002+08:00

Selagi rajin, buatlah sampai mana mampu..nanti kalau dah start malas, susah nak start rajin balik...

Maybe lepas tolong dosen siapkan PhD, baru dapat semangat baru. Hopefully it will last long.

thats all..

Love Love Love ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-07-10T02:36:00.000+08:00

Gerry Kennedy: Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help f...rom me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you

- P.S. I Love You ♥ ♥ ♥

It was the third English novel I read in my life and each time I read it, I imagined every details in it. The movie was released last year and I watched it in cinema. Its a different interpretation from the director. Well, every one has its own way of thinking. But all and all, I like it.

thats all..

I am Lazy

2011-07-07T11:02:00.000+08:00

"Bila la nak start buat kerja balik nih? Dah hampir seminggu kerja bertumpuk. satu hape pun tak siap lagi. Pastu ada hati nak jalan-jalan. Apa macam sekarang?

Kalau nak berjaya kena lah rajin. Jangan salah siapa, salahkan diri sendiri.

*Headbanging*

Macam mana nak buang rasa malas? Or maybe hati aku dah kotor sangat sampai badan pun jadi malas? Dah bape lama tak bace Quran ek? Solat jemaah ada jaga tak?

thats all..

Not really wanted to go

2011-07-05T09:20:00.000+08:00

When everything gone, you'll know its over. But part of your heart still refuse to accept it. This is why heart is a complicated thing God made for us.
Once you heart something, it took place deep in your heart and change you every now and then. You got the thing and you happy. You lose it, you feel sad. When you can't find it anymore, you heart broke.
Its something more than just affecting your emotion. Its affect your body, health, relation, wisdom, decision, and almost everything of your life. So to play safe is to make sure what you put in your heart is not embedded so deeply because things come and go.
But I don't think anyone can do that...because everyone have heart.

thats all...

Says Rochie Torres XI

2011-07-01T18:53:00.000+08:00

"Staying in love is one thing that you should protect, because once it starts to fade, it’s hard to bring the sparks back."

thats all..

Work break

2011-07-01T09:03:00.000+08:00

We went to waterfall. Its not as big as in Telaga Dua Warna but its worth a swim. Its quiet, isolated and nobody around. Just us having fun.

We got offer from Garnier, Cover Mag, Gucci, Prada and Biotherm. But we denied all..we wanna be Dentist..hoho

thats all..

Challenge accepted

2011-06-27T02:56:00.000+08:00

After a long thinking, I made up my mind. If he can do it, so do I.
He made a move. A smart move. I should too.

Guide me through this, Sifu!

Wuahahahahahahahaha~

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres X

2011-06-26T02:44:00.000+08:00

"The hottest love has the coldest end."

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres IX

2011-06-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned."

thats all..

Still awkward

2011-06-22T16:48:00.000+08:00

Its my second day in new department. This time I met again with Julu's group. And of course Yumi is there also. But I still didn't understand one thing. Why did I get silent treatment? I hope not.

Its been two days and we haven't even mutter a word to each other. Just a look from far away. Yeah. I get it. I have to start talking so that this awkward silence will end. She notice me and I notice her. But neither are talking. So childish. Its irony that both of us in Pedodonsia, a department where we specialized in children. LOL.

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres VIII

2011-06-11T16:33:00.000+08:00

Swallow your pride occasionally, it's not fattening. :)

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres VII

2011-06-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Remember, darkness does not always equate to evil, just as light does not always bring good.

thats all..

A trick to better life

2011-06-09T10:25:00.000+08:00

For better tomorrow of yours and your family....

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present..
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

A path to be taken

2011-06-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

"Ada 2 department je yg tinggal lagi. Pedodonsia and Prostodonsia. Satu untuk orang-orang terlebih umur, satu lagi untuk yang tak cukup umur. Bila dah sampai hujung-hujung Koas ni makin banyak pulak masalah datang. Orang cakap masalah tu bukanlah satu halangan, tapi satu cabaran.. okeh..let see.. challenge accepted!!

If masuk Pedo, tambah satu minggu lagi kat Perio or stagnant seminggu. A bit generous coz I can finish what is left from my cases. Then budak-budak sekolah akan cuti tak lama lagi. More advantages.
But If masuk Prosto, nanti masa bulan puasa tak leh keja. Kena stagnan sebulan. Dan ramai yang repeat Postest. Sebab tu kalau failed postest boleh repeat cecepat.

I prefer pedo."

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres VI

2011-06-07T20:27:00.000+08:00

"How can you say that you're special to someone when everything he did or say to you, he did to anybody else?"

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres V

2011-06-04T16:24:00.000+08:00

"DEAR GIRLS, MAKE-UP IS A HARMFUL DRUG. ONCE YOU START USING IT, YOU’LL FEEL UGLY WITHOUT IT."

thats all...

Says Rochie Torres IV

2011-06-01T09:54:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes, the way to win and the way to beat them is to stop fighting them."

thats all..

what goes around comes around

2011-05-31T19:06:00.000+08:00

"I had been a bad boy to my parent when I was kid. I guess it all comes back to me now. I can't totally understand a child but yet they always get ways to annoy me. Why children? Why?
I want to be cool again. Just being me. Not a jerk."

thats all..

When I get older

2011-05-29T12:20:00.000+08:00

I saw so many wrong things and definitely I am still doing most of it. I had a problem with girls. I can't resist them. Especially the pretty one. God knows how far I would go just to get their attention. The only thing that stop me is reminding myself where I stand, my family and my empty pocket. n_n

thats all..

Say Rochie Torres III

2011-05-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

"Age should not be a barrier to happiness."

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres II

2011-05-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

"What is love? Don’t ask a person who loves someone. Ask a person who has lost someone"

thats all..

My camera is broken

2011-05-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

Something wrong with my camera. The lens cannot auto focus anymore. The lid went missing. And now I hadn't had any pictures taken even though everyday was bright and clear. When did this happened?

I should replace my lens as soon as possible. Knowing my camera broke down had me banging my head against the wall. I love that camera so much.. Shit like this makes me wanna scream..Arghhh~!

Oh God, please help me..

thats all..

Its a long wait

2011-05-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

Finally, we had won the FKG Futsal Tournament. Wow! What a win it was. For five years we have been trying to win this competition and not a single year we reach the final. Now its finally paid off.

*I feels like crying when the final whistle was blown. My knees shaking and my heart trembling. Is this real? We really win? OMG! I almost can't believe my self. I can't stop smiling the whole day. This feeling is so wonderful.*

My team wore a record: Unbeaten, Top scorer...and Champion~!!!

The best Defender~!! So self-claiming, rite?? haha

Is this the end of the road? Will we play again in tournament? Should we?

thats all..

Its you to me

2011-05-22T11:40:00.000+08:00

Its late night and I haven't feel sleepy at all. If I didn't sleep now, tomorrow will be one heck exhausting day. I tried closing my eyes and hoping I would sail into dream world soon. Some minutes passes but I can still feel my body lying on the bed. Maybe I'm thinking too much that my soul can't take off to dream world perhaps?

..............................

"What do you think of me? What do you think of us? Do you like chocolates? Have you read the novel I gave you? I like it when you smile. Have you loss some weight? Do you still teach night class? You know you send me chills every time our hands meet. You do like long hair didn't you? How is your laptop? We haven't chat for some times are we? Do you like surprises? Because I got so much to give in my head. I like your eyes. I can see the color breaming wonderfully. What your favourite color? I remember our first goodbye-day you dresses up beautifully. You wear black skirts and white shirts while I'm all black. You look gorgeous as princess would be. We took pictures together, laugh some more and when its time to go home, you wave me goodbye. But thats not our last goodbye. We met again later and the day after that. Do you think we can be together? Do you afraid of the future? I do too. But I know we can make it works. I wish I can see you more often."

.............................

thats all..

Things where they belong

2011-05-19T13:30:00.000+08:00

I hadn't had many novels in past few years. When I head home last week I got myself a novel. Its author happen to be a British guy who lives in Malaysia. He made a wonderful yet simple story of loves. I heart this story and it gives me a more view of life. Now I know what to tell girls when they're sad. Reading is learning.

I made a gift for Yumi also. A novel it is. But I haven't had a chance to give her. Maybe tomorrow is the day.

thats all..

Don't need to fight

2011-05-16T10:11:00.000+08:00

"Ada dalam minggu ni je dah 5 kali main futsal..Setiap petang..sampai dah penat kejar bola dah..tapi kena bertahan sikit lagi sebab dah nak dapat gelaran juara..dah boleh nampak dah bayang2 nak angkat piala dah ni..Kena berlatih sepak bola biar accurate skit lps ni..nak dapat feeling passing macam dolu2.."

I had this feeling that I didn't call my parent like I usually does. When I was in first year, I called home like two times a week or at least once a week. Now I feels like I didn't have time to call them. Why? I can't answer it myself. I promise I'll call them tonight!

thats all..

Lost again

2011-05-12T14:05:00.000+08:00

"Ni memang malang tahap ayam dah ni. Dah la pasien orto tak datang. Skeler Din lak tak tau letak mane. Hadeih. Asal la tym skang ni baru nak jadi macam2..Pasien kasus satu pun takde lagi..Nasib baik paper dah jalan..Tapi DPH lak sangkut..Oh~! Apakah?!!"

Tolong la jumpe balik skeler tu....:(

thats all..

My brother's Wedding

2011-05-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

The day my brother looks forward the most is his wedding day. The preparation take months. And even on the very last day, we haven't done arrange and decorate the whole house. But the ceremony went well.

"Majlis pertama dibuat di rumah pengantin perempuan. Ini lah pertama kali aku tengok kakak ipar aku. Bila dia pakai mekap nampak lawa. Pandai abang aku pilih kakak untuk kitorang. Cantik. Dan hari ni jugak aku kena jadi pengapit abang aku sebab yang paling stylo mmg aku sorang je. Haha. Nak jadi cerita, pengapit perempuan pun leh tahan jugak rupanya. Amboih. Tak nak kalah cantik dengan kakak dia."

"The next day, we had the ceremony in our house. Everything was well and okay. Everyone help out so much. I hope my wedding would be like this or better."

thats all..

Says Rochie Torres

2011-05-04T03:46:00.000+08:00

"In every girls life there is a boy she can never forget, and in every boys life there is a girl he can never get."

I wish I am in someone's life.

thats all..

Nothing but Everything

2011-05-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

"Hari ni rasa macam loser gle. Pasien datang kejap je pastu tak leh nak proceed sebab still dalam fase penyembuhan dari operasi odontektomi kelmarin. So datang camtu je lah. Ingat nak tunggu pasien klinik, sekali sorang pun tak nampak muka. Last-last dalam pukul 12 tu ada la mamat sorang nih dihantar dari Bagian Bedah Mulut sebab katanya ada kasus pilihan Traumatik Oklusi. But then bile nak lapor masuk pasien je, doktor jaga cakap dah tak boleh sebab pukul 12. Hampeh. Terpaksa la minta maaf dengan pasien dan hantar dia keluar klinik.

So its like I've done nothing. Nothing.

Tapi bila ada mereka yang happy-mepi kat situ, tak terasa sangat nak mengeluh kesah segala. Lagi-lagi bila dapat kacau Yumi. Fun gle rasa. Gelak-gelak sikit pastu sakat Yumi. Tulis nama dia dalam laporan as assisstant and I put ♥ kat nama dia. She's blushing all over her face. Its so funny.

So I feels like I have everything. Everything.

thats all..

Que sera sera~

2011-05-01T16:13:00.000+08:00

I thought yesterday gonna end badly, but things changed. My patient didn't come as she promise because she didn't have anyone to take her to the clinic. I was a bit down. But things turn out well after that.

There is a requirement for me to be assistant in surgery before operating one. I had one yesterday. And what I'm really happy with it is that I assisted Yumi and Steff. My oh my. Its brighten up my days a lot!

thats all..

Treat myself a treat

2011-04-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

Having some ice cream for supper. God how long I haven't had any ice cream. Its feel nice!

thats all..

Doing anything

2011-04-27T08:43:00.000+08:00

I can't make any stranger any more special. Like I was trying to spread all of attention. Why? Because I am a middle son in my family. Wish I can go home to my family. I miss them very much.

thats all..

for steff

2011-04-25T08:49:00.000+08:00

All the tiring and what for again?

2011-04-25T01:13:00.001+08:00

"Kalau setakat belajar gigi je buat apa sampai 5 tahun??"

Typical question for a dentist. Actually we learn more than just teeth. We learn anatomy, biochemistry, physiology, pathology and more on medical stuff. Dentistry is only one specialist part of medical that control what goes into you. Its the gate of your body. You will have a great smile with a dental care. That's what we are.

Another part of the story is just about her. I'm just a person who like to look at the beauty of life and admire it.

At Bintan. What a beautiful place to go. I wish I can go there soon.

I just love the perspective here. Looks like she's concentrating on her laptop and being good at it.

thats all..

Periodonsia

2011-04-21T04:52:00.000+08:00

Almost three weeks here and currently enjoying a bit of life. I had to clean all calculus and plaque in mouth. I guess being a dentist, you will always gonna see bad oral and smell bad odor.

Using scaling manual and electric does help me learning to clean teeth totally.

And of course the sweet beautiful person here spice up my every day life. But there is a lot to catch. I can't just sitting around idling. Hopefully I will pass this department with flying colors.

thats all..

Having another day is not having yesterday

2011-04-17T03:48:00.000+08:00

"Time pass by quickly"

thats all..

Gadis Netral

2011-04-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

Today I bumped into a lovely girl and I didn't realize it until far. She walked right up until I accidentally bumped her butt. I said sorry and moving on. As I sitting down, I catch a glimpse of her and she was so beautiful. She had a gorgeous eyes, straight nose, pretty smile and everything looks fine on her. Sure caught up my attention a lot.

thats all..

Sick!!

2011-04-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

Its been two days! Two days!!! I can't do all the right stuff and I felt dizzy all the time. Because of this diarrhea I hardly do any works. I've taken med this morning and I hope everything will be better after an hour.

I can't sleep last night because of the pain. My stomach rumbling and growling and it kicks around like something wanna come out. So I lie at the hall watching tv. I end up sleeping for an hour but wake up again by the stomach ache.

Urgghhhhhh~!!! I hate this!!!

thats all..

slow progress

2011-04-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

I've spent a lot of money.

I've spent more times doing nothing.

And now I'm thinking of escaping somewhere.

I need a break.

thats all..

What I was thought

2011-03-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

"In tan surullah ha yansurkum wa yusabbidt akda makum"

Jika kamu menolong (agama) Allah, pasti Allah akan menolong kamu.

Yakinlah hal ini kerana sesungguhnya Allah Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang terhadap semua hamba-hambanya. Bila Allah sayang hambanya, Dia akan berikan agama. Bila Allah lebih sayang lagi, maka Dia akan berikan kerja agama.

thats all..

Farewell granpa :(

2011-03-25T01:31:00.000+08:00

I got a text from my dad. My granpa just passed away at 12.30 am Malaysia's time today. I got down for awhile. Sadness it is. I never got really connected with him. But from all his child I know he was a good father and tutor. May he rest in peace.

"Innalillahi wa inna ilaihiroji'un "

thats all..

Being creative but got to be lame instead

2011-03-23T16:28:00.000+08:00

When you try to be creative, it takes only a nudge of "hurmm" to destroy it. I made a few poster for my Public Health department but none was accepted. I wonder if I'm moving to strong.

thats all..