Its exactly the same

Sometimes we do the same mistake without aware of it. Its like hurting yourself on the same spot and of cause its hurt more. I can't think anything else right now except her. I had totally forgotten my past and its all thanks to her. Now I am fond to her so much that I want to share everything I feel and everything I have with her. I want her to know how much I beseech her. Its too early to say I love you or I want you but thats the truth. I can't hold it anymore. Even if everyone says I'm an idiot for doing such thing, I just don't care.

"Sorry for the things that I did not say, like how you are the best thing in my world and how I am proud to call you my girl."

thats all...

Had Enough??

Still missing old love??

Can't forget her??

Someone you seeing right now resemble her??

Share same dreams in life??

See her everyday keep you fall for her again??

Remember the sweet moments every night??

Keep listening to 'our' song??

See her name every where??

These questions have definite answer. – Yes – So, when will I ever moved on in relationship?
I just don't know yet.

Thats all..

So sick

I'm back in Medan already. But by the time I'm back here, I caught a cold. Exam is just tomorrow but I don't have energy to study till late night. I felt really weak right now. Oh God, please help me. I don't want to failed this examination.

So 'pening' and 'loya'...

thats all...

One big leap

Its not even a moment that I don't think about her. I tried to get her off my mind. But it just not working. And because of that I'm going nut right now.

"I will not die, I'll wait here for you. I feel alive, when your beside me."

thats all..

One step at a time

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing or not. Sometimes I get so excited and got carried away. Maybe I'm moving too fast that she doesn't prepare to face it yet. Maybe I have to back off for awhile. Give her some space to breath and to think it over.

As for now, I should concentrate more on my coming exam. So much to read and so much to remember. I just hope everything will go well after this

I’m trying

I am already here in my hometown. Just as planned, I stayed with her at LCCT until morning. It was the best moment ever in my life. We spend time together all night going here and there and then back again just to kill time. Being with her until morning just won't do. I really hope we can spend more time together. Parting time sure is hard. I don't know if I ever have chance like this ever again.

Days passed by and I'm beginning to fall for her more and more. I said that this time I won't put everything on the line, but the truth is I'd already do that. Now I felt like every day I want to see her, hear her voice, talk to her. I madly in love with her and this is what I afraid the most. Once I fall in love, in my eyes, everything in the world is nothing more important than she is.

I hate this feeling so much but I also want this so much. As long as no one else gets her I don't really worry if it takes more than forever to be with her.

thats all..

I didn’t know it

Sometimes I got carried away so easily. I wanted to hide something and only show something but in the end everything just revealed itself. I'm so embarrassed right now. I should not have put that picture there in the first place. Everything is a mess now...

"Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care..."

thats all...

My paper heart

I'm doing just fine with everything for sometimes. Most of my time still passed by with me doing nothing. I sleep a lot and dream a lot.
I'm thinking about having my hair cut before I go home for Raya.

It looks like everyone beginning to notice about my new 'someone'. I only had a picture of her - taken unnoticed - and that is the only picture of her I ever have since I knew her. I want to know everything about her. Her family, friends, favourite foods, favourite music, and most important is her heart.

Please give me more time to be with her...to know her...to love her...

thats all...

Its already decided

"Its not hard making a decision, its painful.."

But this time, its nothing near pain or grieve. Its full of joy and passionate. Now, its up to me to make myself better and useful.
Maybe I'll be spending less time with my friends from now on. So busy I guess.LOL!

thats all..

Too early too soon

I've been wondering if I'm moving too fast in this relation. We just get to know each other for about 2 weeks now but it seems to me that cupid's arrows had been shot too early. I'm not very sure of it until now.

"Prophecy: Prince Ashitaka, show everyone your right arm..My prince, are you ready to learn what fate the stone has foretold you?

Prince: Yes, I was prepared the very moment that I let my arrow fly." -Princess Mononoke

Since I'm not putting everything on the line this time, I guess the only thing I can do is back off for awhile. We should really take it slow a bit.

thats all..