Hanging out, hanging on

"Pergi carrefour dengan gadis local. Makan dekat fountain. I tergelak sendiri sebab diorg pilih nak makan nasi dengan martabak kat situ. Baik makan kat kedai lain yang memang spesialis nasi goreng. Kat fountain tu kan spesialis aiskrim, so better la pilih yang ada kaitan dengan aiskrim. Bukan nak kata aku ni pandai, but pilih lah makan ikut kesesuaian. Kalau makan kat Pizza Hut kan kena pilih pizza. Makan KFC, pilih ayam goreng. Konsep dia memang macam tu. Itu dipanggil food planning. I belajar pun masa kat matrix sebab ada dinner.
Masa form 5, kalau pergi makan yang ada buffet, mesti jadi rambang mata tak tahu nak ambil mana dulu. Pengalaman mengajar. Sekarang ni kalau ada dinner, I akan cari apa yang spesial kat situ. then cari yang lain dari biasa. Kalau nak makan nasi ke mee ke baik tak payah makan situ. Kat kedai mamak pun boleh. Bayar dah cukup mahal dah tu."

I'm not doing any planning and now I'm in dilemma. I have to stop delaying works. Focus on one thing makes me missed the other. I hate it when I didn't manage myself carefully. Even when I tried my best, inside I'm still a mess.

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I am legend

"Hari ahad pertama sebagai non-lab..setelah tamat setahun sebagai koas..banyak lagi kasus yang tak setel lagi..ada 4 department yang kena repeat.. Ya Allah, Mudahkanlah segala urusanku.."

Last week sebelum keluar, Aizat menikah dengan orang Indo. Isteri dia ustazah pesantren. Alhamdulillah, acara berjalan dengan lancar. Mahar yang diminta pengantin perempuan sangat best. Hafalan surah Ar-Rahman. Wow. Jarang ada zaman sekarang mahar macam tu. Semoga menjadi keluarga yang diberkahi Allah, mawaddah wa rahmah.

Girl? Its girls.
I know this is wrong. Playing one girl which I don't have any feeling just to kill times, but chasing another I wish to spend the rest of my life with. I'm sorry.

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multitasking

"98% of average human cannot multitasking."

I am in that percentage. When I swim, I cannot drink. When I sneeze, I cannot talk.
But right now, I'm practically going out with a girl and holding on to another one. Not to mention I'm still working in clinic and have a test coming. Soon, I'm gonna crash. Because I'm not capable of multitasking. I know what I am inside that's why I'm gonna back off from one thing.

Aizat baru kawin semalam. I jadi fotografer dia. Alhamdulillah, sorang kawan I dah selamat kawin. Semoga bahagia ke anak cucu..

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Got sick again

"Makan ubat seminggu yang lepas. Minggu ni makan lagi. Batuk kali ni tak teruk macam minggu lepas tapi sekali dengan demam pulak. Serius gila tak larat. Macam lalok je setiap hari. Dah la kena kerja sampai petang. Pukul 4 pukul 5 baru balik rumah. Malam sambung lagi kerja kat rumah. Kalau ada on call memang pengsan dibuatnya."

My dad teach me a lot. He teach me to be a man. A gentleman. But sometimes a lose my cool and begin ignoring all around me. Especially when I got sick. I can't think straight and I regret it happened. I need to set my mind straight.

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Composing lagu

"Arrangement dia dah ok dah ni. Tinggal nanti kau kena sama kan tempo dia."
"Tempo? Camne nak bagi sama?"
"Pakai fruty loop pun boleh. Cuba kau bukak jap"
"Ni haa. Kat mana?"
"Tu. Meh sini aku buatkan."
"....."
"Dah. Sekarang rekod la balik lagu tadi."

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A very talented musician stop by to guide us in composing this song. He said our arrangement is okay but need to sync the tempo. There is still one piece missing. The solo part. I beg him to arrange that part for us. He said okay and gonna look into it. What a relief. Now I can focus on the melody. The one who will sing this song is not me. Definitely not me. I think my friend, Qurot, gonna match the song just nice.

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26 jam sehari

"Busy sangat 3 hari ni. Banyak nak kena taip. Assignment dah bertumpuk, kerja lab pun asyik delay je. Macam tak cukup sehari nak kerja. Kalau lah tak payah tidur kan bagus. Komfem siap semua kerja.
Ada side project lagi kali ni. Ada competition lagu untuk Bandung Games. So far yang nampak ada hasil cuma wakil dari Jakarta. Wakil yang lain hantar video yang tak berapa nak best. So, I dan kawan-kawan tengah perah otak mencipta lagu baru. hihi..Last night dah siapkan music sikit, cuma tinggal nak tambah bass, then melodi nyanyian dia. Lepas tu nak kena buat video clip pulak. Huhu..tak sabar nak tengok hasil akhir dia."

About girl? I wanna be just friend for now. I have a second thought of it when I put myself in someone else shoes. How would you like some one coming to you and say, hey, is that your girlfriend? Isn't she had some mental problem or something? Hufff. That would be weird. A risk of being with her is either as her cure or as her poison. I don't want to be either. Poison might killed you and if healed, you wouldn't want to take medicine anymore. Who would? Yup, I might sound like I don't want her but seriously I need more time.


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I want it so bad, it hurts

"Baru tadi I try call this girl lagi skali. Because sampai sekarang I tak tau apa jadi kat dia. Semua terputus macam tu je. Yang I tahu, member dia cakap yang dia dah balik dengan ex dia.
Truuut..trutt  Truut..trutt.. *click* Hello.."
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I had a long talk with her. I really want to know what really happened from her own lips. I asked her what bother her last week. She paused for a second and sigh. I know this gonna be long conversation.
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"Rupanya dia bukan balik ke ex dia. Instead, dia tengah lari dari ex dia. Dia dengan ex dia dah putus sebab ex dia ada girl lain yang 'perlu' dari dia. Past mistakes. Selalu je kesilapan silam yang mengganggu present. And now, dia dah tak ada apa-apa dengan ex dia. Tapi dia tak berapa nak kuat. Sebab sampai sekarang ex dia asyik contact dia walaupun dah kena marah dengan kawan-kawan dia. Last semester, this girl terpaksa ambil prescription untuk ubat penenang gara-gara tekanan perasaan yang terlalu berat.
Last week, ex dia cakap nak datang jumpa dia kat sini. Dia marah. Dan setiap kali tu juga dia akan stress berat. This girl dah hampir gila nak lari dari ex dia. Dari SPM dapat 11A, matrix kat PASUM, then ambil MEDIC, I terasa sangat impress dengan dia. Tapi semester lepas dia drop dengan teruk. She starts skipped class. Berkurung dalam bilik. Once a while je keluar. Nasib baik ada kawan-kawan yang support dia."
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She said she desperately needs a turnover. She tried so many thing to change back to who she was. I said, you have to stop first what ever depressed you. If he contact you made you swallow a pill, then he is definitely the first thing to stop. Cut everything that related to him. Then will you find a new beginning. (Though I secretly want to be that new beginning).

I hate to say this, but men really are selfish. I am too. I know because I act like a jerk when I didn't even know the truth yet.

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So sick

*cough**cough*
"Sakit tekak dan batuk *cough* rasa macam nak tercabut anak tekak. *cough* Inilah akibat selalu keluar malam-malam. Angin malam bukannya bagus untuk badan. *cough**cough* Oh, kenapalah lepas satu, satu datang ujian. Bertahan lah Ubai~!"

Aside from that, Dental Faculty USU has been given an honour to host "Bulan Kesehatan Gigi Nasional" for 3 days. Starting today, and what a crowd it is. I don't have enough hand to manage all patients. It really is hectic day. Really tiring but the experience I gain worth everything.

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Its jamming time

"Rasa macam nak jamming lagi je minggu ni. Ada banyak masa lapang actually. Sekarang ni nak fikir lagu apa nak main. Setiap kali jamming asyik main lagu sama je. Kalau tak cinta gila, perfect situation, mesti disampingmu. Nak jugak main lagu genre lain. Haih. Cepat search lagu best2.."

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Back to zero

"Kawan dia bagitau yang dia dah baik balik dengan ex dia."

Wow. And just like that, I stop chasing it. Damn you cupid. Why do you have to make another hole in my heart. Oh, well. I guess I have to keep learning about relation. So much I'm lacking inside. What should I do then till another girl appear in my life?

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