I'm restless when I'm home..*sigh
I thought I could get some rest but things just won't work out the way I always wanted..
I went to PD as my dad asked me to drive him there..
I took some picz just to kill time..ahaks~

Helping myself on he bed..very comfy..huhu~

Room where I stay..just for a couple of hours actually...

My dad...he didn't pay me yet! he promised..

So damn tired after a long chauffeur job..huh..

home sweat home

Its good to be home again!
Everything changed since last time I was home. We moved back into our old house in Sg. Buloh. But some renovation seems underway. I arrived safely with Mamut and we had our lunch at makan kfc msia.huhu...

Hactic as always..
I thought I can have some rest when I got home..but instead of comfy bed, I end up in front seat of my car! My dad asked me to drive here and there..
so much to tell....
maybe later..

thats all..

Going home

Can't wait to see my family..wuhoo0!!

"Banyak bende nk kene wat balik nih..kad atm aku patah lak ari tu...balik ni nk kene trus wat kad baru..pastu nk bayar yuran...wallet pn nk kene carik baru..
then kene cari gigi utk lab...byk bende nk kene kemas lagi sbnr nye...

pastu utk org yg xbalik msia pun kene bwk sumthing..sian diorg duk negara org lama2...mesti rindu masakan msia...nnt aku bwk la sumthing...
pastu nk bwk gift utk An lak...die stress berat lagi skg nih...sian lak kat die...
yang aku leh wat pg td pun breakfast utk die jek...hermm...hope la die cpt2 ok...

balik nih nk tgk muvi2 yg dah kuar...nk ajak sape ek nnt? erm..sob,pijah,ibal,apar,alan,ramai lagi la...huhu...x saba nye..."

thats all...

aku tak main-main

Adoii..aku dah xtau nk watpe dah...
tekanan perasaan btol aku skg...
mende la yg An stress sgt nih???

Dah 2 ari stret dia x balas msg aku..ble aku ym jek die trus offline..aku kol pun die xnk angkat...aih...marah nampak...mende salah aku nih?

baru je nk wat suprise tuk die,tp trus rase down ble die wat aku cmni...adoii..
nk kate period, baru je 2 mggu lps abis...result die xbgs kot, kene remedial...ntah la...aku tnye asik xnk layan jek...

hermm...nk wat pe lg ek??

my head!!


"Berat nye rase pale nih...adeih...perut pun dah 3 hari wat hal...damn la...salah makan ke?..adoii...smlm xde la tdo lmbt...tdo pkl 1 tu kre bese lps bgn pagi nih rase mcm pnat sgt lak...rase mcm baru lps men futsal je...tambah lak dgn pale nih makin berat lak rase...sebu jek...

bgn2 jek tgk jam dah pkl 9.30....adeih...lambatnye bgn...subuh telepas...prut lapa...pale sakit...exam x ready pape pn lagi...huhu~..nak nangis je rase...apsal ari ni camni haa??!!...adekah aku tdo dgn sgt stress smlm??!!"

my words

To Bibie:
Esok ak de ak nk mintak maaf byk2 kt ko.smua salah silap,salah pegang, salah cakap,salah pujuk. Sorry sgt2. n Thanx sudi kuar dgn ak b4 dis.thanx 4 letting me hold ur hand.thanx 4 evry time that u think of me.thanx 4 letting me fall 4 u..klu dgn membenci aku leh wat ko hepi..biar la ak dibenci selama nya..aku ttp care kt ko..xkesah la..asal ko hepi..." -end of sms-

its not me!!!it can' be...*gasp*(OMG!!!...IT IS ME!!!..)
ohh..what the heck..i'm used to be mat jiwang anyway...i just end up losing the feel of being one right now...not interested anymore...maybe Romantic is the right word..

nope. she didn't hate me..
she's just having some problems...yup..she stressed up..
nk kene pujuk die setiap kali pun cmni gak...besenye dari pagi bad mood, petang baru die xtau la plak nnt smpi berminggu-minggu ke..aiyokk...jgn la jadi cmtu..
but that's my life...must get used to it..huhu~

thats all...

again and again

I'm getting quite a headache right now.

I'm being loved for one second..then I'm being hate.

Next, I felt being loved again..but just a moment then the feeling turn away..

Its happened again and again..

I'm getting sicked and tired of these feelings...

Ohh God...I wish I'd never fall for anyone in the first place~

Alien save the earth??

Keanu Reeves had leaved a remarkable impression from The Matrix and its sequel. But this time the story board of this movie give him a downgrade. Such a pity for a big commercial movie, the story are not as great as anyone would expected. Trust me. I've watched it.

The ending just so lame..

thats all...

thought from the past

I went through my entry lately and I found many things had changed. I learned many things and gained some experiences along way. Some of the entry caught my attention..

"Sering kali di dalam hidup,setiap orang akan merasai kejatuhan, hati hancur, ataupun dihina. Hinggakan suatu ketika kita akan merasa diri kita tidak berguna langsung." "Tapi walau apa pun yang telah terjadi, ataupun yang akan terjadi, anda tidak akan hilang harga diri. Bersih atau kotor,renyuk atau licin, anda tetap berharga terutama pada mereka yang disayangi." "Harga diri kita bukan datang daripada apa yang kita lakukan atau siapa yang kita kenal tapi SIAPA SEBENARNYA KITA..." jelas Prof Ibrahim. - novel kak mulia

thats all..

Pray to god

I called my mum yesterday. She told me that everything we do we might get wrong but God never do. So ask God for help before we start doing something. Recite Quran everyday and never ignore prayer. That is the way I live and grow with it.

Sometimes its hard to explain things just because they are complicated. But take your time and do it right. No one knows if the result might be more than you expected.

As we grow up, we learn to reason with things. We made wrong decision once in awhile and can't turn back around. But learn from that mistake. Never do it twice.

just reminding myself where to start...

thats all..

expected no more

Its hard to endure this feeling for so long. Sometimes I imagine things I can make with her. But the truth is, I can never expect anything from her. Almost everything that we've done together, I've had to put double effort for it. If I ever expected anything from her it'll hurt me more..

Things that turn me down:
- she forgot my birthday..* could she...
- every time I ask her out, she'll hardly say yes..
- when I want something from her, she'll say "No"..after awhile then she'll say "Yes"..why??
- I called her everyday but when I didn't call, she never bother to call back..
- I try to make this thing works, but what is she doing??
ARGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!! tension sial...


But she did something that bright my day:
- she called me "dear" every time we message..
- she asked me to follow her shopping sometimes...
- she wish me gud luck before every exam..
The best part of it...She loves me~

for that reason, I hold on to this string tightly, hoping that she would make everything better by time...who knows~

waiting forever

How much longer do I have to wait??

Where are you my dear??

I wish she would call me now..or even BUZZ me..or just an SMS would do enough..but what heck I'm doing right now?? I keep waiting and waiting but nothing cross my screen..*sigh..

An dear, please call me...I really need to hear your voice right now..(T_T)

::i missed An..

turning point

"There's a story about a little boy. This boy had seen her mother baked a cake one day. Its look really delicious with creamy topping and strawberry on top of it. The boy sneaked into the kitchen to take a bit of the cake.
But he had to be very quiet so that his mother didn't know. He crawled under the table, tip toed on the ragged mattress, stumbled by the pail, tripped onto cat and so much obstacles.

Finally he reached right in front of the cake. Can't wait any longer, he dipped his finger into the cake and put it in his mouth. To his shock, the cake was not as he expected. Its far worse than anything he had eat before.
The cake taste like mushroom and beans and none of the flavor were any near what he imagined. A few minutes later, he got stomachache and its very painful. He screamed and wailed because he can no longer endure the pain.

The next day, he saw another beautifully decorated cake and got attracted to it quickly. He came near it and smelled it. He desired the cake very much. But he scared something might happen just like last time.
He knew that he can get the cake but never will he taste it..But who knows if he had the courage one day.."

thats all..

My angel in the night

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
But that is not enough
Will I ever be by your side

Your hair is dancing in the wind
Your eyes are burning off my skin
And I'm so happy when I see
That you are smiling back at me

You're living burn marks on the ground
Thank you God for what I've found
I don't know how, I don't know why
That you're my angel in the night

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
Let me hold you now
Just like days before you start to cry

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
But that is not enough
Will I ever be by your side

I try my best to satisfy
But all you do is where we make it right
I don't know what I'm gonna do
But I'm so crazy about you

Even if I don't know where to start
Even if my love is tearing me apart
I just know that you and me
We were always meant to be

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
Let me hold you now
Just like days before you stopped to cry

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
But that is not enough
Will I ever be by your side

You're my angel in the night

pokemon parody~

just for fun~ LOL~

Exam is here!!

I can't believe its already here. Feels like just yesterday I registered for this semester and now I'm here struggling for final. Uhue~

I rode my bike around this evening just wasting some time. The weather was perfect. The sky was clear and beautiful. I felt relieve just looking at the sky. The wind that touched my face breeze away all the stress and I felt so refreshing. The noises around me seems fade away all of a sudden. Ahh~

thats all..

Eid - Month of sacrifice

I remembered last time I went home to celebrate Eid Mubarak with my family. Its still fresh in my memory like it just yesterday.

My lil bro n sis..I miss playing with them.

Chatting dgn Tok Long Musa..that moment I was eating nasi impit dgn rendang daging.

WiF my lil bro..harap2 la die besar nnt lagi pandai dan bijak dari aku nih..

WiF my fren..dak kenit and dak katik..dah la xdapat gi majlis raye..last2 mkn paim je..hahaha..what a memory.

but now, I'm right here struggling for final exam tomorrow. Its a big exam for me because I've been downgraded for two straight semester. This time I will make a change to it. I hope so.

getting fired up

Yesterday was really tiring but it feels worthy. I had Pedo paper that morning. After that I went home to get my lab jurnal which I forgot to bring. Nisha followed me home. We should be in class at that time but we stucked by traffic jamm and nothing we can do about it. We decided to eat as we are starving to death.

I went to get my bike serviced and it takes only an hour as there no one there to queue. When everything done, I dash home quickly because I felt really sleepy. I need some rest. I woke up after that just to get news that my housemate already booked a court to play futsal at 6. I don't know if I should go but I played anyway because there was no other available person they could get.

Just when we ended the futsal game, I went dinner at Paim. Then stick around house 23 to kill time. Julu already booked futsal court at 11 and they're shorts on players. I promised to come though its gonna be really tiring game. Its ended up with goals. Lots of goals.

Now I can't get any sleep because I'm already pumped up by caffeine which I should not take in the first place...*sigh...

::I missed An..

thats all..

Get married??

I’ve been thinking about my future for sometimes. Things about marriage and life after that.

“Nanti dah grade trus keje..sebab klu nk kawin kene kumpul duit atleast RM 10k utk hantaran dgn kenduri kawin...tunang je pun dah brape dah...klu nk jimat kene la pakai moto dulu...duk dgn parent ke..klu kene posting jauh, duk kat flat je la kot..mmg jimat abis la..
kalau berjimat btol leh la save RM 10k.

Other option, nanti dah grade, keje jap stahun pastu trus wat Master...pastu stat keje dah dpt gaji tinggi...klu kawin trus pas abis Master pun xde la kabut sgt...kre membantu gak la..leh la klu nk pakai kete besa mase tu..beli umah ke...tapi lambat la nak tunggu...maybe dah kawin dah kot time amik Master tu...Ntah la...”

After marriage, there should be:
- Cari umah nak duduk
- Kete
- Perabot dan peralatan umah
- adik bradik or ipar2 mintak tolong/pinjam mcm2
- parent n mentua mintak duit every month
- parent nak timang cucu cepat2
- Balik kampung
- Hutang keliling pinggang

thats all...

Square root of three

"I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed"

- Harold and Kumar: Escape from Guantanamo Bay

Lacking study

PMR : 9 A
SPM : 4 A 8 B
Matrix : 3.45


I'm just average. Am I becoming stupid-er or dumb-er??
I think I missed something very *Important*. Maybe :

--> tak jaga amalan.(byk silap kat sini kot)
--> tak jaga semayang.
(ntah nk jadik ntah)
--> banyak sgt dosa.
(ni mmg dah kompem dah..)
--> byk kutuk org
(esp dosen)
--> byk tido yg lebey2.
--> malas bace buku.
(bace komik rajin lak)
--> study last minit.
(tu la psl..)
--> tak cukup nota
(lambat sgt carik..)
--> suka berangan
(xdpt den nk nolong eh..)
--> asyik men gitar.
(buang mase gle..)
--> asyik tgk tv.
(xde bende best pun sbnrnye..)
--> wat entry kat blog..
--> byk buang mase atas moto.
(jalan2 je paim pun kre same la tu..)
--> begayut kat tepon.
(ntah sape ntah yg aku kol pn aku xtau..)
--> Layan feeling lebey.
(ni tahap jiwang abis la ni..adeih..)

Ohh..banyak nye yg perlu aku ubah..*haih*

thats all..

TAGGED - sara, faiz, julu, din, mira..huhu

Sakinah tagged it is..

* RULE #1 - People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.....

* RULE #2 - Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Forget her. Look for someone else. F**k her btw.

2. Do you like tags?
Not sure. Kinda killing my time.haha.

3. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Rich! ha3..lovely wife also..

4. Whose butt would you like to kick?
don't no. never hate anyone. maybe Sara's would do..ha3

5. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Mansion. Luxury cars. Personal plane. Went around the world. Help poor people.

6. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
Maybe.but no hell I'm gonna take a chance..

7. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone makes me a me. Being loved made me scared. ha3..don't no why.

8. Are you gorgeous?
I'm not handsome. I'm gorgeous.LOL

9. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Like some other girls. I'm gorgeous maa..ha3.

10. What do you pray each day for your loved one?
Love me always. Never cheated ever.

11. What takes you down the fastest?
Losing someone precious.

12. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
On the top of the world. Success maa..

13. Why do you think you are so tensed matter at the office..or at home or in your toilet??
Orang xnak layan lawak aku..mesti la mara..ha3.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Rich and married. Kawin itu sunah nabi.

16. Who would you like to see the moment you wake up?
Sape2 selain malaikat mungkar nangkir.

17. What’s the character must have in your partner?
Suke jalan2 nek moto..

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The prettier la ofcoz..and the one I love the most..

19. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Forgive but never forget.

20. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Single is good. Couple complete me..hu3.

21. Would you leave your family behind just to chase your dreams?
Ah..hell no.I'm a family guy lah..

Tagged :

1. Sara
2. Faiz
3. Din
4. Julu
5. mira

Another swing

Hold it tight and never let it go. That's just what everybody said when they already found "the-right-one". But there's always a time when you reach the line where there is no more words that can describe love. At that point, all of the feelings turn upside down and you started to wonder if all your feeling was real. When that happened, you should listen to your heart and look into the moment you shared together. Moments you were kissing, hugging, hanging out, making love and how sync you are for each other. Trust me. It'll work.

"Its building a bridge of chance for your love." - My sassy girl

Miss her deeply

I dream of her in my sleep. I tried to called her but she seems far away. I sceamed for her but she just kept getting far.

Then I woke up and I hardly hold my tears. Now I know how it feels to miss someone deeply. I miss her very much..and I barely breathing..

Cupid arrows

1. The arrow sails right through: The result is falling madly in love, albeit briefly, with the first person you see. This can be quite embarrassing in the short term as running up to someone on the street, shouting "I love you!" and grabbing a boob or a crotch is generally frowned upon. However this causes no long term damage to the heart.

2. The arrow glances the heart and cuts it: This is initially very painful. The heart becomes very tender and leads to drunken whining along the lines of "Why don't you love me?" *Sob*. Fortunately the affect usually wears off by morning.

3. The arrow hits the heart but bounces off, leaving a bruise: This is a simple Do-you-want-to-go-out-sometime?-No-thanks situation, rather than a Do-you-want-to-go-out-sometime?-Ewww-you-make-me-want-to-shove-my-fingers-down-my-throat-I-have-to-go-take-several-showers-to-get-rid-of-the-grossness-of-being-asked-out-by-you! type scenario. Again there is no long term damage, but you should take care with the heart for a while, because it will be a bit sore.

4. The arrow digs in, but snaps off leaving a fragment in the heart: This can be quite nasty. This happens when you ask someone out and they say yes, but rapidly lose interest. Ultimately it doesn't cause too much damage, but it's a bit annoying.

5. The arrow tears a chunk off the heart: The hole means that you are susceptible to developing huge crushes based on physical infatuation. If dealt with correctly this isn't a problem, it only becomes so if you leave the wound open to the elements. Most cases of stalking are a result of carelessness in this area.

6. The heart gets mangled: This happens during messy break ups. In this case Cupid got the shot right, unfortunately your chosen love decides to pull the arrow out with the delicacy of an elephant doing decoupage. This causes mass tissue damage and the heart struggles to survive. It's all kinds of painful.

7. Critical Fault: This is the worst. Cupid again is right on target, but unfortunately the arrow snags on something and is yanked out through the top causing a crack. It's circumstances beyond Cupid's your or anyone else control – it's just a bitch. If not treated carefully the heart can break in two and become completely useless. The common response to this eventuality is to go "ow! ow! ow-ee! ow-ee! ow!

thats all..

Cupid story

Cupid never actually graduated from Love School; he failed his archery exam because he was such a terrible shot. In spite of this he has gone on to become the most successful person to have attended the school.

For true love to occur, one of Cupid's arrows needs to pierce our heart directly. The closer to the centre the better.

Cupids arrows are dipped in love juice, this disperses into the heart making the person all sappy. The love juice is made from:

* Melted down romantic films. The quality of the film affects the love's chance off success. Should it be something fun and funky such as the Wedding Singer the relationship has every chance. However if the film was some god awful tripe featuring Julia Stiles then it is doomed from the very beginning.

* Awww juice. This is created every time someone saws "awww" because of Cutesy Wutesy Kittens, Fluffy Wuffy Bunny Wabbits or Sweet and Cute and Ickle (sic) Ducklings.

* Mushed up Flower Petals. Cupid uses sweatshop workers to stomp on them and give them the correct texture.

thats all..