Don't dissapoint me

If you feel down, when people around you say you can't, when they hate you for what you were...

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We move on

Pagi ni lamabat pergi klinik sebab edit-edit gambar wisuda semalam. Then kemas bagasi yang besar yang dah berhabuk tu. Bawa keluar semua baju yang tak pakai dalam tu dan sort out. Ada yang masih bagus ingat nak bagi ke anak yatim. Yang teruk sangat buat kain buruk je la. Ade skit yang nak kena buang jugak.
Dah tiba masa untuk buang barang-barang yang dah simpan berabad lamanya ni. Benda yang tak pakai tapi sayang nak buang sebab ada emotional value. Sekarang dah lepas semua. Biarlah yang baru je yang ada dalam hidup ni. Baju yang lama tu buang je la. Kertas-kertas yang dah simpan bertahun-tahun tak tahu nanti pakai lagi ke tak pun akan dibuang lepas ni.

Another thing about moving on is it is easier if you have someone you can share with is around you.

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Long since I had it..

Every morning I wake up not knowing what I should do to brighten my day..I had a same routine everyday. Wake up, take a bath, eat breakfast, goes to work, get home, eat again, sleep. Then I realize I had to have girl aside from my wonderful friends to hang out with. My journey begins and some girls appeared and gone from my life right then. Until recently, I had been with a few kind of girl. Each everyone of them different in every way. I learn to know girl.

"Ada girl masak kan makan malam tadi. Walaupun nasi lembik tapi kenyang la jugak. LOL"

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Nightmare

Malam semalam ada rasa macam tak best. Badan rasa penat sangat. So sebelum tidur, mandi dulu skit walaupun sebenarnya tak bagus mandi malam-malam, nanti boleh kena paru-paru berair. Then aku terus tidur. Masa tengah tidur, aku dikejutkan oleh bunyi kucing nak masuk ikut tingkap. Memang biasa macam tu, kucing ni tak makan saman sikit. Asal terbukak sikit tingkap tu mula la dia panjat masuk. Disebabkan aku tidur tepi tingkap, maka aku dijadikan tempat landing masa kucing tu turun dari tingkap.
Tapi pelik sikit malam ni. Aku tak dengar lansung bunyi meng-iau. So aku angkat sikit kepala nak tengok betul ke kucing tu ke benda apa. Kosong. Tak nampak apa-apa pun kelibat kucing. Pintu bilik ada sikit terbukak. Hurm..Maybe kucing tu terus keluar dari bilik kot, aku fikir. Tapi dalam kepala dah terbayang yang bukan-bukan. Malas nak fikir, aku sambung tidur balik.

Dalam tidur, aku mimpi yang bukan-bukan. Aku tak ingat separuh mimpi aku pasal apa, tapi kat hujung mimpi aku dikejutkan oleh bayang-bayang 'ghost'. Ada pocong dalam mimpi aku. Dalam mimpi tu auk tengah mandi, tiba-tiba ghost tu muncul kat tepi tingkap bilik air.
"Babi la~!" tu je yang keluar dari mulut aku masa aku curse ghost tu sebab kacau aku mandi. Aku cepat-cepat keluar bilik air. Then aku ternampak abang aku. Aku nak cakap something tapi tiba-tiba muka dia terkejut macam nampak ada ghost kat belakang aku. Aku dapat rasa mesti ada ghost gak. So aku pusing belakang dan memang betul-betul tepi muka aku. Dan sekali lagi aku curse ghost tu, "babi la, babi~!!"
Then aku terjaga dari tidur.

Jam menunjukkan pukul 4.58 am. Hurm..dah masuk subuh dah rupanya.

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Playboy

One of my friend called me Playboy just because I was good to every pretty girl met. Actually, I was good to everyone. She knew I was into this girl but I kept on hitting other girls. It what makes me U B A I. Undeniably Bad Ass Inside. LOL

This girl made a request for me to sing her Bruno Mars song. So I made a video and I put in it every picture of heart I had in my laptop. When I called her later, she asked me, If I meant all the picture in it for her. I don't have the right answer. I laughed it out and try to change subject. She kept asking me again and again. At last, I said, those are the pictures I had in my laptop and I put it in the video to match the song. A love song should filled with hearts. I know its not what she wanted to hear. But I just can't say it just yet. It will be so much to lose If I said it just then.

I slept less and less everyday but none of it because of my work. And I think my eyes will get ruined soon if I'm not sleep well and work in brighter condition.

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What happened?

Tengok game Malaysia lawan Cambodia. Bila dah dapat 1-0 mula la main possession. Ada kadang-kadang tu tahan bola pun tak bagus. Asyik lepas je. Rembat entah ke mana. Tapi tu performance sekarang. Tahap dia memang tak seberapa. Harap-harap lepas ni pasukan U23 Malaysia berkembang lagi.

Cakap pasal bola, semalam baru je main futsal piala konjen. Tapi tak lepas grup stage pun. Takde rezeki. Tapi okay la kot sebab dapat jaring 4 gol untuk team. Mamut pun dapat satu gol je. Lepas ni dah takde tornemen dah nak join. Tu la last untuk kat Medan ni. Lepas ni main kat titi bobrok je la malam minggu.

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my birthday yesterday

I had a wonderful evening with the girl. We went out to eat, lepak-ing some more, then we headed to her house. I remembered it was 8.30 pm when I arrive at her house. I went back home at 1 o'clock in the morning~! WTF?! Man, that was crazy. We only watch movie, listen to some music and playing guitar.
Now she really into me. I can't back off right now just yet. hurm..

I brought this on me, I have to deal with it myself.

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Last night

"Yesterday I went out with her to celebrate her birthday. We eat, watch movie and hanging out at her house. Its raining night but I insisted to go on with our plan. Its was wonderful.
Until late hour, some one from my past appeared. Farhana. With her friend. I didn't notice her at first, but the way she walked quickly past me caught my attention. I stuttered for a second. Calm down. I said to myself."

I made a birthday card for her.

The doll is cute and the card I made is beautiful. I'm impressed with myself. LOL

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Bold. Very bold

I didn't realize it but I'm beginning to show more of my heart to this girl. I don't want to admit it but everything I did, shows how I like being around her. I think I might even moves a mountain for her.
Her birthday is just three days away. What should I get her? A teddy? Flower? Wishing card? Watch? Cloth? Shoes?

"Alangkah indah saat itu. Saat bila engkau masih dalam pelukanku. Namun ku harus relakanmu. Kerana tangannya sudah ku genggam erat. Tidak mungkin ku lepas."

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