incoming sadness

I don't know if it is something to worry about or not. I try so hard to endure my feeling towards her and be supportive even if it takes lot of pain. but still I can't get hold of her. Every time I msg her I got it reply late. Every time I want to talk to her she avoid me. And I really scared that she might be with another guy because I'm too slow to get her..

Every time I see her with other guy I gone speechless. The only thing I could do is stay by her side not saying one word. I really hate myself for being too shy and let my chance flew away..I still hope there is some place for me inside her heart that will change evrything that happened now..

I'm too tired of pretending to be supportive when I'm the one who suffer the most. Once she said she had to suffer here alone but I won't let that happened to her..if anything I can do for her right now, I'll do it for her..even if it takes thousand of miles and years for me to do it..

I got to get strong if I want to be supportive to her..if I give up now how can she bear me her heart..I still love her forever even if she with someone else..that is my last word..

thats all..