What do you think

Semalam keluar makan dengan gadis local. Pergi makan dim sum. Kenyang sangat. Masa makan tu, ada Mama hot duduk sebelah meja kitorang. Memang cun la wa cakap sama lu. Ada anak kecik 2 orang dalam umur 2 - 3 tahun. Pastu sebelah dia ada lagi 3 orang anak jantan, maybe adik die kot, sbb mcm dah besar dah umur-umur 17-18 tahun kot. Dalam hati aku dok pikir, apa la yang diorang rasa bila Mama diorg HOT sangat? Mesti tension sebab orang lain asyik usha mak dia je. LOL

Malam ni lak nak pergi tengok citer Mission impossible Ghost Protocol. Disebabkan sekarang ada sale kat Sun, ramai sangat yang shopping. Sampai pukul 9 lebih pun macam tak berkurang orang. Dah la jammed gile kat situ. Ade setengah jam kot stuck kat jalan je semalam. So malam ni kena gerak awal kalau nak tengok muvi.

Hari ni besday Yumira. Last year aku pergi meredah panas terik matahari sebab nak cari kan kek paling best untuk besday dia. Best je rasa kacau dia. Walaupun tau dia tak layan, tapi bila kena kacau nanti dia malu-malu pastu blushing sampai muka merah padam. So cute la this girl. Not really my type, but considerable just to kill some times.

thats all..

Experienced worker

Dah masuk department perio kali kedua ni, rasa macam senang gila scaling gigi orang. Kejap je dah siap. Dulu bukan main lama lagi nak siapkan satu rahang. Kali ni setengah jam pun tak sampai buat satu mulut. Mantap jugak la. LOL.

Teringin nak makan Dim sum..

..dan teringin jugak nak makan tom yam..huhu..terliur...*drool*

Ingat nak masak je, tapi macam malas nak pergi beli barang-barang dia. Rumah pun tak terkemas lagi. Dah sebulan lebih tak sapu rumah. Hadoi~

thats all..

A little sick for now

Penat. Tapi belum start kerja lagi. Badan rasa lemah je. Asal bangun tidur, mesti sakit kepala berdenyut-denyut. Kepala rasa bengang je. Makan panadol sebiji kemudian tidur balik.

Esok start kerja scaling gigi. Apa pun tak siap lagi. List yang hari tu buat tak habis lagi tick. Nak kena tambah baru.

List:
1) Hantar kawat ke rumah pasien.
2) Trimming model orto
3) Tunjuk kat doktor pembimbing titik sefalo
4) Beli jam baru
5) Start pergi gym balik
6) Hitung-hitung kat BM.
7) Cari pasien p'tis dgn pelmel.
8) Jogging pagi-pagi
9) Basuh beg
10) Belajar lagu baru.
11) Bagi surat JPA ke Mimi n Naim
12) Kemas nota dan past year question.
13) Start menabung.

Kalau setakat tulis je memang kerja tak jalan. So lepas tidur nanti nak terus buat mana yang boleh.

thats all..

Nowhere to go

Talking about future. I wished to talked about it. I never had a chance until now. Since I met her. I can say what a guy my age should say.

Accept it. But not in love.

I got some time to shoot some photos with her. It was fun. The least to say. I'm enjoying every moment I have someone by  my side.

Till when??

thats all..

When I hurt her

*Paradise by Coldplay in background.*

I have a problem with girls since I was a kid. Pretty girls. I notice it when I kept looking at the girl. I even go miles to get her attention. Buying her things, gift, trying so hard to be in the spotlight. Sometimes I put on higher voice and laugh out loud hoping that she will notice me. My child memories with girls were not that great.

*Selimut hati by Dewa 19 in background*

 Malam ni main futsal tak berapa nak jadi. Lepas tu takde yang nak jadi keeper. Semua nak main sepak-sepak. Bola pun berat semacam je. Sejak bola yang best tu hanyut dibawa arus parit, abang jaga court tu tak nak dah ganti bola baru walaupun kitorang dah bayar ganti rugi. Hampeh.

*Some one like you by Adele in background*

Agak-agak nya kalau aku balik Malaysia, nanti gadis tu patah hati tak?

thats all..
thats all...

The little thing I missed

A wonderful quotes from my friend

thats all..

Smooth DECEMBER

Its the will to go forward that drives me till this stage of life. 

Its the patient and faith that leads me till where I am right now.

Its all the companion I have that I manage to stay happy.

thats all...

Don't dissapoint me

If you feel down, when people around you say you can't, when they hate you for what you were...

thats all..

We move on

Pagi ni lamabat pergi klinik sebab edit-edit gambar wisuda semalam. Then kemas bagasi yang besar yang dah berhabuk tu. Bawa keluar semua baju yang tak pakai dalam tu dan sort out. Ada yang masih bagus ingat nak bagi ke anak yatim. Yang teruk sangat buat kain buruk je la. Ade skit yang nak kena buang jugak.
Dah tiba masa untuk buang barang-barang yang dah simpan berabad lamanya ni. Benda yang tak pakai tapi sayang nak buang sebab ada emotional value. Sekarang dah lepas semua. Biarlah yang baru je yang ada dalam hidup ni. Baju yang lama tu buang je la. Kertas-kertas yang dah simpan bertahun-tahun tak tahu nanti pakai lagi ke tak pun akan dibuang lepas ni.

Another thing about moving on is it is easier if you have someone you can share with is around you.

thats all..

Long since I had it..

Every morning I wake up not knowing what I should do to brighten my day..I had a same routine everyday. Wake up, take a bath, eat breakfast, goes to work, get home, eat again, sleep. Then I realize I had to have girl aside from my wonderful friends to hang out with. My journey begins and some girls appeared and gone from my life right then. Until recently, I had been with a few kind of girl. Each everyone of them different in every way. I learn to know girl.

"Ada girl masak kan makan malam tadi. Walaupun nasi lembik tapi kenyang la jugak. LOL"

thats all..

Nightmare

Malam semalam ada rasa macam tak best. Badan rasa penat sangat. So sebelum tidur, mandi dulu skit walaupun sebenarnya tak bagus mandi malam-malam, nanti boleh kena paru-paru berair. Then aku terus tidur. Masa tengah tidur, aku dikejutkan oleh bunyi kucing nak masuk ikut tingkap. Memang biasa macam tu, kucing ni tak makan saman sikit. Asal terbukak sikit tingkap tu mula la dia panjat masuk. Disebabkan aku tidur tepi tingkap, maka aku dijadikan tempat landing masa kucing tu turun dari tingkap.
Tapi pelik sikit malam ni. Aku tak dengar lansung bunyi meng-iau. So aku angkat sikit kepala nak tengok betul ke kucing tu ke benda apa. Kosong. Tak nampak apa-apa pun kelibat kucing. Pintu bilik ada sikit terbukak. Hurm..Maybe kucing tu terus keluar dari bilik kot, aku fikir. Tapi dalam kepala dah terbayang yang bukan-bukan. Malas nak fikir, aku sambung tidur balik.

Dalam tidur, aku mimpi yang bukan-bukan. Aku tak ingat separuh mimpi aku pasal apa, tapi kat hujung mimpi aku dikejutkan oleh bayang-bayang 'ghost'. Ada pocong dalam mimpi aku. Dalam mimpi tu auk tengah mandi, tiba-tiba ghost tu muncul kat tepi tingkap bilik air.
"Babi la~!" tu je yang keluar dari mulut aku masa aku curse ghost tu sebab kacau aku mandi. Aku cepat-cepat keluar bilik air. Then aku ternampak abang aku. Aku nak cakap something tapi tiba-tiba muka dia terkejut macam nampak ada ghost kat belakang aku. Aku dapat rasa mesti ada ghost gak. So aku pusing belakang dan memang betul-betul tepi muka aku. Dan sekali lagi aku curse ghost tu, "babi la, babi~!!"
Then aku terjaga dari tidur.

Jam menunjukkan pukul 4.58 am. Hurm..dah masuk subuh dah rupanya.

thats all..

Playboy

One of my friend called me Playboy just because I was good to every pretty girl met. Actually, I was good to everyone. She knew I was into this girl but I kept on hitting other girls. It what makes me U B A I. Undeniably Bad Ass Inside. LOL

This girl made a request for me to sing her Bruno Mars song. So I made a video and I put in it every picture of heart I had in my laptop. When I called her later, she asked me, If I meant all the picture in it for her. I don't have the right answer. I laughed it out and try to change subject. She kept asking me again and again. At last, I said, those are the pictures I had in my laptop and I put it in the video to match the song. A love song should filled with hearts. I know its not what she wanted to hear. But I just can't say it just yet. It will be so much to lose If I said it just then.

I slept less and less everyday but none of it because of my work. And I think my eyes will get ruined soon if I'm not sleep well and work in brighter condition.

thats all..

What happened?

Tengok game Malaysia lawan Cambodia. Bila dah dapat 1-0 mula la main possession. Ada kadang-kadang tu tahan bola pun tak bagus. Asyik lepas je. Rembat entah ke mana. Tapi tu performance sekarang. Tahap dia memang tak seberapa. Harap-harap lepas ni pasukan U23 Malaysia berkembang lagi.

Cakap pasal bola, semalam baru je main futsal piala konjen. Tapi tak lepas grup stage pun. Takde rezeki. Tapi okay la kot sebab dapat jaring 4 gol untuk team. Mamut pun dapat satu gol je. Lepas ni dah takde tornemen dah nak join. Tu la last untuk kat Medan ni. Lepas ni main kat titi bobrok je la malam minggu.

thats all..

my birthday yesterday

I had a wonderful evening with the girl. We went out to eat, lepak-ing some more, then we headed to her house. I remembered it was 8.30 pm when I arrive at her house. I went back home at 1 o'clock in the morning~! WTF?! Man, that was crazy. We only watch movie, listen to some music and playing guitar.
Now she really into me. I can't back off right now just yet. hurm..

I brought this on me, I have to deal with it myself.

thats all..

Last night

"Yesterday I went out with her to celebrate her birthday. We eat, watch movie and hanging out at her house. Its raining night but I insisted to go on with our plan. Its was wonderful.
Until late hour, some one from my past appeared. Farhana. With her friend. I didn't notice her at first, but the way she walked quickly past me caught my attention. I stuttered for a second. Calm down. I said to myself."

I made a birthday card for her.

The doll is cute and the card I made is beautiful. I'm impressed with myself. LOL

thats all..

Bold. Very bold

I didn't realize it but I'm beginning to show more of my heart to this girl. I don't want to admit it but everything I did, shows how I like being around her. I think I might even moves a mountain for her.
Her birthday is just three days away. What should I get her? A teddy? Flower? Wishing card? Watch? Cloth? Shoes?

"Alangkah indah saat itu. Saat bila engkau masih dalam pelukanku. Namun ku harus relakanmu. Kerana tangannya sudah ku genggam erat. Tidak mungkin ku lepas."

thats all..

Hanging out, hanging on

"Pergi carrefour dengan gadis local. Makan dekat fountain. I tergelak sendiri sebab diorg pilih nak makan nasi dengan martabak kat situ. Baik makan kat kedai lain yang memang spesialis nasi goreng. Kat fountain tu kan spesialis aiskrim, so better la pilih yang ada kaitan dengan aiskrim. Bukan nak kata aku ni pandai, but pilih lah makan ikut kesesuaian. Kalau makan kat Pizza Hut kan kena pilih pizza. Makan KFC, pilih ayam goreng. Konsep dia memang macam tu. Itu dipanggil food planning. I belajar pun masa kat matrix sebab ada dinner.
Masa form 5, kalau pergi makan yang ada buffet, mesti jadi rambang mata tak tahu nak ambil mana dulu. Pengalaman mengajar. Sekarang ni kalau ada dinner, I akan cari apa yang spesial kat situ. then cari yang lain dari biasa. Kalau nak makan nasi ke mee ke baik tak payah makan situ. Kat kedai mamak pun boleh. Bayar dah cukup mahal dah tu."

I'm not doing any planning and now I'm in dilemma. I have to stop delaying works. Focus on one thing makes me missed the other. I hate it when I didn't manage myself carefully. Even when I tried my best, inside I'm still a mess.

thats all..

I am legend

"Hari ahad pertama sebagai non-lab..setelah tamat setahun sebagai koas..banyak lagi kasus yang tak setel lagi..ada 4 department yang kena repeat.. Ya Allah, Mudahkanlah segala urusanku.."

Last week sebelum keluar, Aizat menikah dengan orang Indo. Isteri dia ustazah pesantren. Alhamdulillah, acara berjalan dengan lancar. Mahar yang diminta pengantin perempuan sangat best. Hafalan surah Ar-Rahman. Wow. Jarang ada zaman sekarang mahar macam tu. Semoga menjadi keluarga yang diberkahi Allah, mawaddah wa rahmah.

Girl? Its girls.
I know this is wrong. Playing one girl which I don't have any feeling just to kill times, but chasing another I wish to spend the rest of my life with. I'm sorry.

thats all..

multitasking

"98% of average human cannot multitasking."

I am in that percentage. When I swim, I cannot drink. When I sneeze, I cannot talk.
But right now, I'm practically going out with a girl and holding on to another one. Not to mention I'm still working in clinic and have a test coming. Soon, I'm gonna crash. Because I'm not capable of multitasking. I know what I am inside that's why I'm gonna back off from one thing.

Aizat baru kawin semalam. I jadi fotografer dia. Alhamdulillah, sorang kawan I dah selamat kawin. Semoga bahagia ke anak cucu..

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Got sick again

"Makan ubat seminggu yang lepas. Minggu ni makan lagi. Batuk kali ni tak teruk macam minggu lepas tapi sekali dengan demam pulak. Serius gila tak larat. Macam lalok je setiap hari. Dah la kena kerja sampai petang. Pukul 4 pukul 5 baru balik rumah. Malam sambung lagi kerja kat rumah. Kalau ada on call memang pengsan dibuatnya."

My dad teach me a lot. He teach me to be a man. A gentleman. But sometimes a lose my cool and begin ignoring all around me. Especially when I got sick. I can't think straight and I regret it happened. I need to set my mind straight.

thats all..

Composing lagu

"Arrangement dia dah ok dah ni. Tinggal nanti kau kena sama kan tempo dia."
"Tempo? Camne nak bagi sama?"
"Pakai fruty loop pun boleh. Cuba kau bukak jap"
"Ni haa. Kat mana?"
"Tu. Meh sini aku buatkan."
"....."
"Dah. Sekarang rekod la balik lagu tadi."

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A very talented musician stop by to guide us in composing this song. He said our arrangement is okay but need to sync the tempo. There is still one piece missing. The solo part. I beg him to arrange that part for us. He said okay and gonna look into it. What a relief. Now I can focus on the melody. The one who will sing this song is not me. Definitely not me. I think my friend, Qurot, gonna match the song just nice.

thats all..

26 jam sehari

"Busy sangat 3 hari ni. Banyak nak kena taip. Assignment dah bertumpuk, kerja lab pun asyik delay je. Macam tak cukup sehari nak kerja. Kalau lah tak payah tidur kan bagus. Komfem siap semua kerja.
Ada side project lagi kali ni. Ada competition lagu untuk Bandung Games. So far yang nampak ada hasil cuma wakil dari Jakarta. Wakil yang lain hantar video yang tak berapa nak best. So, I dan kawan-kawan tengah perah otak mencipta lagu baru. hihi..Last night dah siapkan music sikit, cuma tinggal nak tambah bass, then melodi nyanyian dia. Lepas tu nak kena buat video clip pulak. Huhu..tak sabar nak tengok hasil akhir dia."

About girl? I wanna be just friend for now. I have a second thought of it when I put myself in someone else shoes. How would you like some one coming to you and say, hey, is that your girlfriend? Isn't she had some mental problem or something? Hufff. That would be weird. A risk of being with her is either as her cure or as her poison. I don't want to be either. Poison might killed you and if healed, you wouldn't want to take medicine anymore. Who would? Yup, I might sound like I don't want her but seriously I need more time.


thats all..

I want it so bad, it hurts

"Baru tadi I try call this girl lagi skali. Because sampai sekarang I tak tau apa jadi kat dia. Semua terputus macam tu je. Yang I tahu, member dia cakap yang dia dah balik dengan ex dia.
Truuut..trutt  Truut..trutt.. *click* Hello.."
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I had a long talk with her. I really want to know what really happened from her own lips. I asked her what bother her last week. She paused for a second and sigh. I know this gonna be long conversation.
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"Rupanya dia bukan balik ke ex dia. Instead, dia tengah lari dari ex dia. Dia dengan ex dia dah putus sebab ex dia ada girl lain yang 'perlu' dari dia. Past mistakes. Selalu je kesilapan silam yang mengganggu present. And now, dia dah tak ada apa-apa dengan ex dia. Tapi dia tak berapa nak kuat. Sebab sampai sekarang ex dia asyik contact dia walaupun dah kena marah dengan kawan-kawan dia. Last semester, this girl terpaksa ambil prescription untuk ubat penenang gara-gara tekanan perasaan yang terlalu berat.
Last week, ex dia cakap nak datang jumpa dia kat sini. Dia marah. Dan setiap kali tu juga dia akan stress berat. This girl dah hampir gila nak lari dari ex dia. Dari SPM dapat 11A, matrix kat PASUM, then ambil MEDIC, I terasa sangat impress dengan dia. Tapi semester lepas dia drop dengan teruk. She starts skipped class. Berkurung dalam bilik. Once a while je keluar. Nasib baik ada kawan-kawan yang support dia."
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She said she desperately needs a turnover. She tried so many thing to change back to who she was. I said, you have to stop first what ever depressed you. If he contact you made you swallow a pill, then he is definitely the first thing to stop. Cut everything that related to him. Then will you find a new beginning. (Though I secretly want to be that new beginning).

I hate to say this, but men really are selfish. I am too. I know because I act like a jerk when I didn't even know the truth yet.

thats all...

So sick

*cough**cough*
"Sakit tekak dan batuk *cough* rasa macam nak tercabut anak tekak. *cough* Inilah akibat selalu keluar malam-malam. Angin malam bukannya bagus untuk badan. *cough**cough* Oh, kenapalah lepas satu, satu datang ujian. Bertahan lah Ubai~!"

Aside from that, Dental Faculty USU has been given an honour to host "Bulan Kesehatan Gigi Nasional" for 3 days. Starting today, and what a crowd it is. I don't have enough hand to manage all patients. It really is hectic day. Really tiring but the experience I gain worth everything.

thats all..

Its jamming time

"Rasa macam nak jamming lagi je minggu ni. Ada banyak masa lapang actually. Sekarang ni nak fikir lagu apa nak main. Setiap kali jamming asyik main lagu sama je. Kalau tak cinta gila, perfect situation, mesti disampingmu. Nak jugak main lagu genre lain. Haih. Cepat search lagu best2.."

thats all..

Back to zero

"Kawan dia bagitau yang dia dah baik balik dengan ex dia."

Wow. And just like that, I stop chasing it. Damn you cupid. Why do you have to make another hole in my heart. Oh, well. I guess I have to keep learning about relation. So much I'm lacking inside. What should I do then till another girl appear in my life?

thats all..

Its gonna be a very long chase

"awak dah tengok citer Xmen first class?"
"blom..nape?"
"haa..saya kat Sun ni..nak tak tengok malam ni?"
"eh..takpe la awak..takpe. Lagi pun esok saya ada tutor.."
"oo..ok..saya ingat nk ajak awak keluar sebab awak asyik berkurung je dalam bilik hari ni.."
"ala...takpe.,takpe.."
"haha..masuk ni dah lima kali awak cakap takpe.."
"ye ke..hihi..takpe. saya okay je.."
"kalau esok cmne?"
"esok saya tak boleh la awak..saya nak pergi rumah kawan saya.."
"ooooooo......hurm....klau esok nye lak..hehe..takde lah...nanti awak cakap takpe je nanti..haha."
"ermm...sorry...awak marah saya ke?"
"eh, taklah..takpe pon..saya ingat awak tak berapa nak okay je sehari dua nih..tu yang nak ajak awak keluar skit.."
"hurm..ada la skit tak okay..tapi dah okay dah sekarang.."
"saya nak sangat jumpa awak"
"ermm..susah la awak..cmne ek nak cakap.."
"kenapa?."
"hurm..awak kenal *tuutt* kn? Ala, budak *tuutt* gak..erm..org panggil dia *tuutt*.."
"haa..ingat-ingat.." (tak berapa nak fun bila dia mention nama laki lain)
"Semalam la..dia kontek saya..macam mane nak cakap ek..hurm.."
"So?"
"dia kan.....98&()*&"
"haa? xdengar.."
"erm..takper lah.."
"err..takpelah..awak takyah citer pon..sorry, saya macam push awak lak.."
"hurmm..."
"its okay. saya faham..awak tak payah citer lagi.."
"hurm..apa yang awak faham?.."
"erm..let just stay with saya faham je, ok? eh saya ada beli tokiyaki utk awak ni..awak nak tak?"
"eh takpela..awak makan la..awak kan nk jadi gemuk..hihi."
"bukan gemuk la..nak jadi tough.."

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And like that, again, she resent me. I kinda got her story patched. In short, her ex called her a night before and she had a confusing feeling as she recall her times with him. She skipped classes today and stayed home the whole day. I called her just to check up on her. She kept telling me she's okay though. And that boy she mention, is one of my friend from my old school. Damn, I hate it when the past kept messing up the present.

I guess its gonna be awhile before she gets in the mood again. *huff*

thats all..

My paper heart

"Apa yang boleh kita buat nak pujuk girl yg tengah sedih pasal kisah lama dia? Dia tau yg dia dah tak bersama dengan ex dia dan dia nk let go tapi macam susah. How? Boleh ke nak paksa dia keluar? Dari biar dia terperap dalam bilik layan feeling tertonggeng-tonggeng..Or patut ke pergi je rumah dia bila-bila masa pastu kidnap dia pergi makan, sembang-sembang ke?
Last time aku salah ayat masa pujuk girl.  Langsung dia tak nak jumpa dah lepas tu. So kali ni tak nak salah cakap lagi. :("

Last thing I remember was holding her hand while we watched "Earth stood still". But our loves never did. I can never reach her game level. Its what I learn about life.

thats all..

Persuade (teach me how..)

"..saya nak kenal awak lebih dalam lagi.."
"..klau macam tu, awak kena tau yang saya TAK NAK rapat dengan laki2!"
"...okay..itu permulaan yang baik. Saya tau apa yang awak TAK NAK sekarang..tapi kenapa dengan laki2?"
"Entah! saya malas nak fikir. Sakit hati je."
"..jadi awak TAK NAK rapat dengan laki2 sebab awak takut awak akan sakit lagi.."
"Ye la! lelaki semua sama je..huh!"
"Okay..saya dah tau apa yang awak TAK NAK..awak nak tau tak apa yang saya tak nak pulak? Saya TAK NAK tengok awak bersedih dan saya TAK NAK tengok awak kecewa lagi..sebab itu saya NAK jadi pengubat hati awak..saya NAK jadi penyeri hidup awak.."
"......"
"Awak boleh bagitau saya apa yang awak NAK bila awak mau..saya akan tunggu awak.."

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I'm not a sweet talker. And I'm not good at putting words together. I can't tell you what you want to hear. But I promise you I will always be there when you need me..

thats all..

Pesan ibu

"Belajar sungguh-sungguh. Jangan tinggal solat. Jangan lupa doa." Pesan ibu yang pasti terucap setiap kali telefon. Anak yang jauh diperantauanlah yang paling dia risaukan. Dah 5 tahun duduk jauh dengan parent. Balik kampung bila ada cuti panjang dan masa cuti raya je . Boleh kiralah berapa kali je balik Malaysia. Habis je study, ingat nak duduk dengan ibu sebulan dua dulu sebelum start kerja. Dah kerja nanti tak tau lagi kena posting mana. Kalau jauh ke Sabah Sarawak kan lagi susah nak balik. Entah bila lagi nak berbakti pada parent.

And of course I want them to be there to see me success, to see me happy, getting married to a wonderful girl, having kids, buying a new car, moving to a new house. I want to make them proud for having me, for raising me, for teaching me about life. I know its not money that matters to them because they already have it more than enough to raise us 10 siblings. Knowing that we grow up well and happy already put a smile on their face. Oh, I miss them so  much.(T-T)

thats all..

Internet is so fun

Perut meragam gila malam ni. Nak tidur pun tak selesa. Pusing sana pusing sini. Tekan tekan sikit perut dengan harapan sakit boleh hilang. Tapi tak pun. Alahai, apa kes? Salah makan ke tadi? Maybe masuk angin sebab dinner lambat sangat kot tadi. Duduk jap menghadap laptop sambil layan feeling (dan perut yg sakit). Baca pasal bola, pasal F1. Then jumpa benda ni..sweet~

In real life, an old couple’s love is the closest thing you can compare to the ”happily ever after” you’ve been dreaming of since you were a kid. It’s amazing that once in a while, you get to witness a kind of love that have stood the test of time. And you could only wish, that someday, you too, would be just like them. Old, still in love & happy. I hope I could have that with my someone. :)

 

thats all..

What is defining?

Malam terlalu singkat bila lena yang mengiringi terbit fajar. Apatah lagi bila tiada mimpi yang bertandang. Mungkin lelah, penat terlalu memaksa tidur sehingga tidak terasa nikmatnya lelap. Tapi masih lagi tertanya-tanya, entah bilakah nikmat tidur itu terasa? Sebelum tidurkah? Semasa tidurkah?atau setelah tidurkah?

Stupid conversations make sense when you are talking to some one special.

Find a love as great as this. :3

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Apa aku buat lepas main futsal?

Baru balik dari main futsal. Duduk depan kipas pakai towel je sebab nyamuk banyak dan nk bagi peluh kering cepat. Tepuk sana tepuk sini halau nyamuk. Cek status orang kat facebook. Tengok ada tak gadis-gadis comel yang online. Si dia pun xde. da tido kot. Perut masih kenyang makan kat rumah Peik Chin tadi. No pork okay. Tengok tepi kipas ada gitar. Rase macam nak melalak tapi dah malam. Ada aku kesah? Amik je gitar terus strumming satu lagu. Somewhere only we know by Keane.

"I walk across an empty land, I knew the pathway like the back of my hand,
I felt the earth beneath my feet, sat by the river and it make me complete.
Oh simple thing where have you gone, I'm getting old and I need some one to rely on,
So tell me when you're gonna let me in, I'm getting tired and I need some where to begin"

Nyanyi sampai penat. Tepuk sana tepuk sini lagi halau nyamuk. Nampak bilik air kosong. Nak mandilah. Keluar pergi dapur jap minum air.

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Anual event

For each year, I usually goes head over heels for a girl. One girl for each year. This year is the same. BUT the difference is that I felt for her after Eid. Back then, It was Fasting month, when cupid throw an arrow to me. Its a different situation and I just have work hard like before to maintain the spark that lit.

It is a wonderful feeling I have right now. But losing it will destroy part of my heart more. Thats why I'll keep on chasing until there is no space to run anymore.

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First meeting

"Terus hilang confident bila jumpa dia. Kenapa la dia ni lawa sangat. Macam tak  layak sangat aku dengan dia. OMG~! Kenapa la aku leh terfikir nak kat dia? Lawa sangat kot dia ni. Macam Beauty and the beast. Ohh tidak..dia terlalu sempurna untuk aku. Damn~!"

As I am right now, I guess I won't go after her anymore.

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A birthday gift

"What's important to you, may not be important to anyone else. If you want something done, do it yourself."

When I decided to give her a birthday present, I want it to be cool but not too strong. Shows that I care but not too pushy. So I decided to made her a card. I put a little effort so she will know that I do want her and a hand made card is a simple gift to start with.

Gonna give her later..I'm hoping to meet her today! :)

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untie-ing the bind

I don't wanna be your corner stone, where you sees me as mark to take a turn but never stop. I had all inside me wanting to be with you but that just left me another miles away from you. If you ask me, the answer will always be yes. Because you made my life different every time I'm with you..

"saat aku mulai berhenti berharap, kau hadir..."

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I have a crush

Weet weet~
Right now I'm officially seeing this girl. My junior in high school. Though I still haven't met her eyes to eyes, it feels like we have known each other so much. We only chat online and on the phone. It has been a week and everything going well. I haven't decide my heart yet but this time I'm gonna go with the flow.


A few things about her I like to share...


She is a genius girl with tremendous result in every exam. She got 11 A's in SPM, above 3 CGPA in PASUM and got an offer to do Medical in Jordan which she turned down.  7th from eight sibling and live in Klang. She's not a fan of green color but she loves nature. Cat is her favorite pet. She sleeps late every night but get up early. She cooks atleast a meal a day. She has a tiny voice that song a beautiful melody to my ears. She's not a type that goes out with any boys because she comes from a religious background. What she had in mind, she do it with all effort. She is one heck of a girl.



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project runaway

I got in mind a little surprise for upcoming birthday. Because I'm capable of editing video, singing, acting and arts, I got an idea how to make a wonderful birthday present.

It consist of me singing, then a little hand made card, a few lines of poem, and video of me. :)

Now, where to start??

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Hati bunga

Kemana kau selama ini.
Bidadari yang ku cari.
Mengapa baru sekarang kita dipertemukan.

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Life comes and go

This morning we all had witnessed the farewell bid Hitam away. A moment of regret and sad filled our time. Hitam passed away in horrific fall from highest stair in the house. I put a video and pictures together as a memoir as a remembrance of our time well spent.

Afternoon came and we went to a wedding. A ceremony that marks a start of the new beginning. Its served with delicious foods and beverages. Everyone smiles and capturing every moment of happiness in their eyes. Dr Putri, Congratulation on the new bond and family members. I wish you the best in life and happily ever after.

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I didn't know at all

Of all the thing that I held onto, I never realize a simple thing like "hello" could turn everything around. I was on the verge of falling and there she stands looking invitingly with a hope that I'd take a leap to her. I did.

#dearYOU I love it how I can be having the worst day then you make it better by just saying "Hello" #DamnItsTrue

 

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Raya 2011

What is raya without family?

Got so many food to eat.

Visiting relatives all around.

Driving around.

 

I <3 My family

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Whooppss!

My dad offer me gadget, a Samsung Galaxy 2. Its beautiful.


Then, ..



errr..gtg..

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A day of not very good

I had a tough day today. Starting with rain since last night till dawn and I stuck with Maggi for sahur. Then, I was late for clinic. My patient came by though I've already remind her not to come. Had a discussion with lecturer which end up she mad at me. After that we failed at taking dental impression several times and had to continue the next day. Wasted money on materials just to fail it again and again. Planning on shopping in the evening but end up sleeping till Iftar. Can't sleep afterward.

"Waktu kecik-kecik dulu ayah selalu cerita-cerita sebalum aku tidur. Kadang-kadang cerita yang dia sendiri reka tapi ada moral dia. Cerita Mat kambing, Mat lembu, macam-macam Mat lagi lah. Tapi masa kecik-kecik memang seronok dengar cerita-cerita macam tu. So, layan je apa cerita pun. Habis dengar cerita, ayah suruh baca doa tidur pastu tidur.

Dua hari lepas harijadi ayah aku. Aku tak sempat call nak wish. Tapi lagi sedih bila aku tak mesej pun. So, sebagai ganti dia aku dah belikan necktie untuk hadiah harijadi dia. Tak tau nak bagi hadiah apa dah. Sebat je mana yang nampak."

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